Beautiful Secrets

Chapter 16

2 Years Later

It's been 2 years. 2 years. I'm in my senior year of high school and the year is pretty much halfway over. It's Christmas time again. My favorite and least favorite time of the year. Jimmy is still hosting the Tonight Show. Yes, everyone found out, because the day after the whole breakup, Jimmy and I were on the front cover of every major magazine in the U.S
Nancy divorced him 2 months later and moved out with the girls. I somehow convinced my mom not to press charges and she didn't quit. She hates Jimmy though, she always complains about seeing him at work. She barely lets me go anywhere any more. She makes sure she knows where I'm going. I went to therapy for 6 months after the whole thing and started getting better. The year after the whole "forbidden relationship" surfaced, ratings went down terribly. Many people called Jimmy a pervert and lowlife cheater. I changed schools(surprisingly, my mom let me go to public school) and have no friends. Everyone looks at me as a monster who THE Jimmy Fallon cheated on his wife with. They think I'm dirty and cause trouble. Surprisingly, I have an amazing boyfriend who has been supporting me for the past 4 months. He is a gift sent from heaven above and he is probably the only person I have who accepts me. My mom acts like nothing happened and we're just as close and normal as before, but I can see the disgust in her eyes when I talk about anything related to Jimmy. She sees me as a dirty slut who slept with a married man. I heard her talking about me one night to my dad. He hasn't called in forever, but when he saw the media, he called. He told me that I was dumb and stupid for getting involved with a married man who was famous. He also blamed Jimmy. He called his office a lot and would cuss out the poor intern who would pick up. He hated me and Jimmy. My sister has been pretty supportive, she would listen to me rant late at night about Jimmy. She would listen as I cried and screamed about how he left. She would hug me when I'd randomly start crying. I haven't talked to Jimmy since he broke up with me over the phone. He talked about me briefly on his show saying "as most of you guys know, I am getting divorced. As most of you guys know, it was because I did not stay loyal. Most of you guys probably hate me or you are crazy. What I did was very irresponsible and impetuous. I want to apologize to all the fans and to the families that I hurt." That was it. The magazines had our faces in some place on the front for 2 months. Nancy has remarried. She seems happy and her daughters seem happy, too. Jimmy has dated a few woman, they never stay. He can't "maintain a stable relationship" says the tabloids. "Ever since that little girl he messed around with"
I would get dirty looks from people on the streets, people would yell things at me. The past 2 years have been hard, to say the least. I have been accepted to The University of Southern California and University of Oklahoma and many more. I'm leaning towards USC, I wanna get as far away from here as I can, escape. My boyfriend, Sam, has been accepted to UCLA and intends on going. I would like to follow him out there, he's all I have. I try not to watch the show, it's hard because he seems to be everywhere. I go on the subway, his poster is plastered on the wall. I got to get a hotdog, the vendor has a special hot dog called the "Jimmy Fallon" he's everywhere. He hasn't tried to talk to me either, that in a weird way hurts me. After all we had went through he just says "sorry" and drops me. I started writing, it really helps. I've wrote many songs on my guitar and all of them are about Jimmy. I always wonder if he's ever wrote about me. Even through we didn't do much, I wonder if he was really in love with me. I'm so excited to leave this place, most people wanna leave their hometowns and go here, but me, I wanna escape here so bad.

"Hey!" Sam greeted me as I walked out of Trig. I smiled and walked over to him across the crowded halls. "Hey! Are we still on for dinner tonight?" I asked him as we walked down the hall. "Yeah, it's gonna be amazing! I'm taking you somewhere fancy." He said as he lifted an eyebrow. "Sam, you said no fancy places" I whined. "I know, I know, but you deserve it. You've been so busy with college apps and finals and just everything. I wanna do something nice for you." He said. I smiled at him and squeezed him. "You're the best" I said. "I know" he laughed. I saw the stair case in the distance, which meant we'd have to go different paths. "Well, I will see you tonight Mr. Fancy." I said as I headed towards the stairs. "See you tonight Ms. Fancy" he said back. I giggled and started down the stairs. When I got to Anatomy(my next class) I sat my backpack down and pulled out my book. More kids walked in as the bell rang. "Hey guys!" My teacher Mrs. Halsey greeted as she walked in. We all groaned. It was only Tuesday. "You kids....here I want to show you a funny video I found this morning, hopefully it will put you out of this Tuesday funk" she said and then wake me to her computer. I smiled, sometimes she can be fun. Someone turned off the lights. "Will someone pull down the projector screen?" She asked. A guy got up and pulled it down. She clicked on the video and a familiar voice ringed in my ears. The breath flew out of me. It was him. Of course. Him and Justin Timberlake were doing Lip Sync battle. He would talk about Justin sometimes. I remembered it going viral a few days ago and I avoided clicking on it. Everyone around me was laughing. I haven't watched him in months. I couldn't help but giggle, him and Justin were adorable. It brought back so many memories. When the video ended, everyone was in tears of laughter. Suddenly, I saw a boy look at me and mouth "sorry". I embarrassingly looked away. Just when I think everyone has forgot, they remember. It's pretty annoying.