Beautiful Secrets

Chapter 21

"So, what do you have to do for your history project?" Sam asked. "Stevie?" He asked again. I snapped back into reality. "What?" I quickly asked. "Hey, calm down. I just asked what do you have to do for your history project. Are you sure you're ok?" He asked. I looked at him. "Yeah.....um I have to write a 2 page paper and make a visual" I said. He grabbed my hand. I looked at him. I gave him a confused look. "Something's off......are you upset about something" he asked. I wanted to tell him bad, but would never. "I just......have a lot going on" I said. "What? You can tell me" he said. No I can't. "It's nothing......listen, I gotta go. Um, my mom texted me" I said as I gathered my things. "You just got here like 30 minutes ago" he said. "I know, but something happened with Kennedy" I said. "Is she okay? Do you want me to take you home?" He asked. "Uh no it's okay. But thanks for the offer. Bye babe" I said and kissed his cheek before taking off. As I walked out of the school, my mind wondered. Should I call Jimmy, I do still have his number. I hope he hasn't changed it. Should I text him? I mean he's single now. I don't know. I made my way towards my apartment.

When I got home, my mom was already home. "What are you doing home so early?" I asked as I walked in the door. "Well, I took a half day" she said as she hugged me. "Oh, well I'm going to my room" I said as I escaped her embrace and made my way to my room. I pulled out my phone and hesitated. Should I? "Can I come in?" Someone asked. I turned around and saw Kennedy standing at my door. "Yeah! Come in" I said as I put my phone away. She made her way in and sat on my bed. "What's up" I said. "I'm upset" she said as she stared at the ground. "What's wrong?" I asked curiously. "I didn't make the dance team" she said. "Awe, I didn't knew you tried out. When did you do this?" I asked as I hugged her. "I decided last week, and today was tryouts." She said. "Well, I bet you did great, I'm sorry" I said. "I really wanted to make it" she said. "I know, do you wanna go get ice cream?" I asked. "Well......." She contemplated. I smiled at her. "Let's go" I said and hopped off my bed.

"I'm already feeling better" Kennedy said as she licked her ice cream. I smiled at her. "Good" I said. "So, how's Sam?" She asked randomly. I froze. "What do you mean?" I asked. "Like how is he?" She asked. "He's fine.....um.....was I really that loud last night. You could hear everything?" I asked her. She nodded. "Yeah. Hey, it's okay, you just miss him" she said as she took another lick. I raised an eyebrow. "Yeah" I said. "So, are you excited for Christmas?" Kennedy asked. "Yeah! What do you want?" I asked her. "A piano!" She exclaimed. "Piano?" I asked. "Yeah, I really wanna learn" she went on. I couldn't pay attention to her, as much as I wanted to, I couldn't. I wanted to see Jimmy. I miss him even more now. My phone buzzed, I quickly pulled it out. It was Sam. Dang. "Hey, just thought I'd check up on you" he texted. He was sweet and caring like stop. "I'm fine. At ice cream shop with Kennedy" I texted back. "Hey, I'm near there, can I join?" He texted. Ughhhhh. "Sure" I texted back. "Sam is joining us" I said to Kennedy, who was still ranting about the piano she wants. "Cool!" She said. "Yeah....." I said. About 10 minutes later, Sam showed up. "Hey!" He said as he walked in. I put on the best smile I could muster. "Hey babe!" I said back. "Well hello Ms. Kennedy" he said as he looked at her. "Hey, Sam" she said. "Here, sit next to me" I said to Sam as I pulled him down in the booth. "Alrighty then, so what are we ladies taking about?" He asked. "Nothing much, just 2 girls eating some ice cream" I said smiling. He giggled. "So, me and a couple of the guys are going to this Christmas music concert on Saturday. You wanna go?" Sam asked. "Uhhhh...I'll have to ask, obviously, but um sure" I said. I needed to hang out with Sam more, I needed to fall in love with him. I needed to love him the way he loves me. Jimmy hasn't called or texted or anything. "Awesome!" He said.

After ice cream, we all walked back to the apartment. Sam I and I laughed and joked all the way back. This was how it's supposed to be. Suddenly, I saw a lot of commotion going on down the street. "What's going on?" I asked Sam. "I don't know" he said. As we for closer, I saw cameras and people holding lights. "They must be filming something" Sam said. I gasped. It was Jimmy. "Oh god" I mumbled as we got closer. He must be filming a remote or something. "We can go another way" Sam whispered to me after he realized who it was. "No, it's fine." I said and kept walking. "Are you sure?" He asked. "Yeah" I said. "Stevie, you don't have to do this, let's just go another way" Sam said. "No, it's fine. I wanna go this way" I said. Sam grabbed arm. "I know another way" he said grabbing me the other way. "Where are we going?" Kennedy asked. "No, Sam I wanna go this way" I said a little louder. He rolled his eyes and kept pulling me the other way. "I don't want him near you" he said. "Sam, stop!" I yelled. "Stevie, I'm just trying to help you!" He yelled back. I know I should've obeyed him and just gone the other way, but wanted to see Jimmy. "No! I want to go this way!" I yelled again. "Stevie!" Sam yelled as he grabbed my hand again. "Get off!" I yelled a little too loud. "Hey! What's going on over there?" Jimmy yelled as he cams waking towards us. "Stevie!" Sam said. I couldn't move, I just stared at Jimmy waking towards me. "Hey! Are you hurting her? What did he do to you?" Jimmy asked as he walked up to me. I choked. "What did you do to her?!" Jimmy yelled at Sam. "I didn't do anything to her!" Sam yelled back. "Whatever, why was she yelling at you to get off her!" Jimmy said as he walked towards Sam. "Fallon! Leave it alone!" Someone from set yelled. "I don't have to tell you, let's go!" Sam yelled and grabbed my arm. "Stop grabbing her! Why can't you let her do anything on her own?! You're like an annoying shadow that won't leave her alone! Jimmy yelled at Sam. "Why do you care?!" Sam yelled. I looked at Jimmy. "Because I care about her" Jimmy said. "Bullshit! If you cared about her you wouldn't have abandoned her when she was helplessly in love with you! You perv!" Sam yelled. "Stevie, do you still love him?!" Sam asked. He was expecting me to say "Hell No!" But I didn't. I stayed silent. I couldn't say no, I'm tired of lying. I tried to say something, but nothing can out. Sam looks at me. He looked at me with disgust, a look I know all too well, I just never thought I'd get it from Sam. "You do" he said. "No! Sam.....I....." I muttered. "You're still In love with him! You're still in love with the man who, remember, totally dumped you and couldn't care less! Who went and parties with other woman while you guys were still dating! I can't believe you, Stevie." Sam said. He was upset, really upset. "Sam...." I said. Jimmy was staring at me. "You can take her home!" Sam said as he walked off with Kennedy. "Kennedy!" I yelled. She looked at me and turned away. I looked at Jimmy. "Hey" he said. "I just broke up with Sam" I said. He nodded. "I'm sorry" he said. "Let me walk you home" he said and guided me away from set. "I'll be back, guys" Jimmy said. "Fallon! We got to finish this!" One guy yelled. "I'll be back!" He yelled back.

"You're so beautiful" Jimmy said as we walked back. I looked at him. "I am so in love with you" I said. "I'm in love with myself, too" he said. "Wow" I laughed. "I'm just kidding, I'm deeply in love with you, too" he said. "We can't do this again" I muttered. "What do you mean?" He asked. "We can't date again, I can't go through it again" I said. He stopped. "Stevie, I love you. I really love you. My biggest regret is letting you go so easily. Letting you get totally attacked by the media and magazines. I'm so sorry, none of that should've happened. I should've divorced my wife, I should've told you I loved you everyday. I should've done so many things." He said. "But you didn't" I replied. A single tear streamed down my face. "I know and I think about it everyday. Stevie, I am so sorry" he said. I looked at him. "Please don't cry" he whispered as he wiped my tear away. He grabbed my hips and pulled me closer and pressed his lips against mine. I put my arms around his neck and kissed him back. He sneaked his tongue into my mouth. "Please don't leave me again" I said between kisses. "Never" he said and then kissed my neck. This is bliss, this is what I've wanted for the past two years. Let's see how long it'll go before it crashes around us.