Divergent Boarding School

Chapter 18: Talking

There's a lot of talking in this chapter, Tris is telling Tobias stuff about her life before Divergent Boarding School. But it's kind of obvious that there's going to be a lot of talking in this chapter because it's even named "Talking". But yeah I hope that you'll like it!! Isabella Prior portrayed by Larissa Vouloukus in the picture. love, lydia.

Tris POV:

Isabella look happy to be home. She's now in her room playing with her toys. Me and Tobias just fished packing up and we're in my bedroom. He sit down on the couch and I were just about to sit down next to him when he drag me into his lap. I giggle but don't object. We sit there and just talk for a while. We talk about everything.

"What it's like being Natalie and Andrew Prior's child? I mean like they're like world famous" he asks.

"It's hard. Like you can't just go and do whatever you want because a papparazzi could always come and just take your picture. The papparazzi really are awful but that isn't the worst. The worst is not to have your parents around when you need them. I love my parents, they are amazing. But they're just so busy with work all the time that I don't get to see then so often. But at least I have Caleb, Hazel and of course Isabella." I say.

"Yeah, I know what you mean. My mom died when I were still very young. And after that my dad started beating me so I really had no one"

"Well, now you have me"

"Yeah, and you have me" he answers and we kiss.

"How did your parents react to you being pregnant?"

"Better than I imagined... They understood that it wasn't my fault"

"Did you ever think of doing a abortion or let someone adopt Bella?"

"Of course I though about it! I mean what pregnant teenager wouldn't. But then I though of this little baby inside of me... It wasn't it's fault that Peter raped me. It still was a baby, a human being capable of a life. And I just couldn't take that away from someone. And sure I though about letting some couple adopt Isabella but it would be so hard to find a couple that I trusted and just not some people that wanted Beatrice Prior's child. And I have always wanted children, maybe not like that but that's how the situation was, so I couldn't bare to leave her. She's my daughter after all... And my mom got Caleb pretty young so she understood and she knew I could do it! I don't know maybe I were being selfish. Maybe Bella would have a much better life with two responsible parents and not me some stupid-" I say but Tobias cut me off.

"Do not even finish that. You're so good with her" he says. And like I always do when he speaks to me, I believe him.

"Thank you" I say and we kiss again. When we break apart he asks something I don't like talking about.

"What was it like being raped?" he ask. I feel sick just by the question and Tobias see it.

"I'm sorry! I shouldn't-" he starts but I cut him off.

"No it's okay! I don't mind telling you. It's like... I don't know how to describe it. Peter was, well still is, much stronger than me so I couldn't do anything to stop him. And I remember after... I were so embarrassed. I couldn't tell anyone. But when I found out I was pregnant I had no choice... It was really hard to be around people in the beginning too. I would always jump whenever someone touched me. It took a really long time getting over it, I'm not even fully over it yet, but yeah, that's life I guess..." I say looking down on my hands.

"Don't look down..." he says. But for some reason don't I want to look him in the eyes.

"Hey... Look at me" he says and take my chin so that I'm looking him straight in the eyes.

"I'm so sorry this happen to you. I get that your not over it yet, I don't think you'll ever really get over it. But I want to make it as good as I can. And we won't do anything before you're completely ready" he say.

"Thank you... But it's okay, I have done it. I mean like after the time with Peter..." I say embarrassed. I don't regret it but I still feel a bit embarrassed.

"Oh, when and with who?!" he asks.

"Maybe a month before I moved to Divergent Boarding School. And I did it with my boyfriend at the time, Robert." I say. Tobias look sad. Maybe he thinks I love Robert, which I really don't. Not in that way anyways. More like a brother and best friend.

"Tobias. I don't love him. I love you. I like Robert as a brother and friend but I'm not in love with him. He's just that person that you known your hole life and you just started dating because you think you owe it to yourself to see if it could be something more. And we started dating just after Isabella was born and I thought that I owed her a father like person in her life, because her real father doesn't even know she exist. We broke up just before I moved to Divergent Boarding School because I don't really like distance relationships, neither does he. But Tobias I never loved him like I love you! I have never loved anyone like I love you!" I say. Tobias looks relived and kiss me. I kiss him back. Soon we have to break the kiss because I can't hold back my smile any second longer.