There I was again tonight
Forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired lonely place
Walls of insincerity,
Shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face.
CHAPTER 3
HOW TO ACT NORMAL AROUND YOUR EX? + THE MEETING
4:00 pa lang ng madaling-araw nang magising ako. I tried my best na matulog ulit pero hindi na ako madalaw ng antok.
Today's the day. Eric will be introduced to our team. After the call with Renz last night, tinadtad niya ako ng mga messages at words of encouragement na parang bibitayin na ako kinabukasan. Kesyo wag ko daw ipapahalata na affected ako, I should act normal daw and be myself. Gago ba siya? Hindi kaya madali yung mga inaadvice niya.
How to act normal around of your ex ba?
Dahil hindi ako mapakali, and there's a lot of things running in my head, I reached for my phone and started typing on the search box: Tips on How to act normal around your ex?
I know this kinda pathetic pero anong magagawa ko? I'll be meeting my ex that I haven't seen for 2 years. Imagine that, 2 long years. I need to be at my best, ayaw kong magmukhang ewan sa harap niya.
After how many seconds, may mga lumabas na results. I clicked the first one, hoping that it would be helpful.
1. Be yourself.
I read the next phrases, and this line caught my attention, "Be the person he first fell in love with, be as happy as possible." How can I do this thing? Be the person I was few years ago? This made me think, I don't even remember who I was. All that's in my mind is what/ who I am now.
If you're meeting your ex, don't dress too much because it would make you desperate for his attention. Well, this is quite easy, a simple dress for an ordinary day will do.
I continued scrolling and reading.
2. Remain calm
I am always calm, but everything has an exception. How can I stay calm when I don't even have my peace of mind now? Hindi ko nga alam kung kaya ko bang hindi mabulol sa harapan niya mamaya. Well, wish me luck. Maybe I'll just have to stay quiet and try not to talk too much.
3. Display a confident body language
Alam kong isa ito sa mga magiging malaking problema ko, I'm a transparent person, people can see through me based on my actions. Bahala na si Superman!
4. Make eye contact with your ex.
Eric's pair of eyes is my favorite. It's full of expressions. I don't think I can maintain eye contact with him if ever we talk. His innocent eyes are intoxicating.
5. Avoid bringing up conversations about the past.
Napataas naman ako ng kilay dito. Why should I avoid talking about our past? Diba nga it's one of the reasons why Renz asked his cousin to take the job. Hindi maliwanag sa akin ang aming paghihiwalay. He just asked me to let him go. Then BOOM! Break na kami. Hahaha, life at its worst eh.
I stopped reading the article, kahit may natitira pang 5 tips ang di ko pa nababasa. I just don't think it will work to me.
"5:00 " basa ko sa orasan sa aking cellphone. Maaga pa, 9:00 pa kasi ang aking pasok at simula ng meeting. Muli kong tinuon ang aking atensyon sa aking cellphone. I opened my twitter and scrolled through my feed.
I just retweet and qoute some of the tweets na nagustuhan ko.
I'm having fun reading some jokes from a certain page, when someone DMed me:
"@ImNoSuperman: Still up, huh?"
Napakunot naman ang noo ko. This user has been DMing me since I created this account. Minsan, he's replying to my tweets, retweeting and quoting them. I always ignore him tho.
