Poison, Love and Me

This is my first story so please bare with me for spelling mistakes. Please also let me know your views. and your comments are most welcome. 

A snow flake fell and rested on my eyelash, it felt light and cool. I opened my eyes and saw pristine white snow covered land surrounded me. 

I am sitting on a white Iron Garden bench, in the middle of the beautiful rose garden. Blue roses are blossoming everywhere. A huge silver fountain was right in front of me and instead of water it was sprinkling tiny snow crystals that swirled around in air before resting on beautiful blue roses. The color combination looks perfect, White & Blue. 

I leaned forward to touch one of the roses close to me and heard someone behind me. A smile played on my lips. I know it's him, I could feel his presence just like that. I can sense his heart beats and my heart beats harder as he comes close behind me. He rested his hand on my shoulder and bends down; bringing his mouth close to my ears he breathes my name "Ivy..."

I felt his warm breath on my cool skin and a shiver ran down my spine. I loved his deep masculine voice and the way he said my name. He touches my face with his other hand and my eyes closed on its own as he turned my face towards him with a tip of his fingers. My face tilts up and I waited for him to claim what I was offering him willingly. He dips his head down and touched my lips with his. He kissed me...

Oh my god... what I have done. My eyes flew opens with the shock. The beautiful surrounding disappeared and I found myself in my old bed room at my parent's home. Again I was dreaming the same dream that has been haunting me ever since I turned 16. It all started at the same awful night my best friend Seth died.

I was devastated and couldn't live here any longer after that horrible incident. My parents understood and arranged for me to live with my mom's sister 'aunt Marry, at her farm house in Greenville. It is 7 to 8 hours drive to Greenville from Vittorio, my home town. It was easy for my parents, so they could come and meet me every other weekend. They came frequently to meet me in Greenville, until they died in a car accident last year. I came with aunt Marry for their funeral, but I couldn't find courage to stay back here and went back to Greenville the next day. I was just unable to live here. At first like my parents, I too thought that with time the memories of that dreadful night will dim and I would be able to come back home but it never happened. Everything is as clear in my brain as it happen yesterday. Seth's face haunted me, the hurt, pain, disbelieve and accusation in his eyes before he died, would never allow peace for my mind and soul. He died because of me. I killed my best friend and now my parents gone too. There is nothing left for me in this town anymore. Today I am here only because I received a call from a state agent saying that she has some clients who are interested in buying this house. All though I don't really want to sell the house, but it was the only way I can get enough money to buy my own house in Greenville. I cannot live with aunt Marry forever, it's not as if she'll mind but I am a grown up now, I oath to stop being burden on anyone. I'll sort out things here and move back to Greenville as soon as possible, and this time there won't be any strings attached to Vittorio.