{ p s y c h o // shawn mendes fanfic }

thirteen

SHAWN
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"Cameron, are you okay?" Charlotte genuinely asks him. she really cares about him which kinda scares me.

sooner or later, i wanna ask her out on a date. for real. i kinda feel uncomfortable at the moment because Cameron and Charlotte are having this moment and i'm like the third wheel.

i just decide to leave. "hey Charlotte, imma leave. seems like you two are busy." i tell her. she takes my hand stopping me from leaving.

"go to your dad." she smiles causing me to do the same. i nod at walk into the hospital.

CHARLOTTE
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i told Shawn to see his dad because i would rather have him talk to his dad than leave or stay with us. i could see how awkward this was for him. i watched as Shawn left and i look back to Cameron to see him emotionless.

"Cameron. tell me what's going on. please." i say begging. he shrugs bringing me to tears. i hated see him like this.

one time, he was just like this, depressed and emotionless, and he wouldn't get out of bed. i would have to bring him food and his family was worried. we never knew why.

Cameron sees me crying and he comes back to life, "babe, don't cry please. i will tell you if you stop crying." i sniffle and he starts to explain, "i hated seeing you kiss Shawn. especially when i'm still in love with you." my eyes grow wide.

he saw that? did he hear everything? he continues, "and you lied to me about Shawn. you guys are fake dating. why?"

that answers my question. now i have to answer his. i don't want to lie to him anymore.

"i lied because i wanted to show you i was better off without you. that i didn't spend countless nights crying, that i didn't wish for you. but it turns out, i was wrong. just ask Macy. i couldn't stop myself. i wanted to show you i was strong." i shut my mouth before i get carried away. now i'm the one staring at the stars. he places his hand under my chin and turns my head towards his.

"Charlotte, you don't need to show me, i already know you're strong. you're the strongest person i know. do you have feelings towards Shawn?"

"i don't know. it was his idea to be in a fake relationship, but i started liking Shawn as we got to know each other. whenever i was with him, i forgot about you. about the sadness i felt for you."

"he likes you back. i can tell. he looks at you like i do. but i love you more. everyday for the past 2 years were for you. i wish i hadn't left so you didn't meet Shawn. so you and me were still a thing." he leans in closer. i turn away but all of a sudden, i turn back around and kiss him.

it felt amazing. something i have been waiting for. something i thought i would never get to do again. he pulls away and so do i. i wanted more. he was addicting.

"Charlotte, would you be my girl again? i've missed us." Cameron pleads. before i can even think about it, i answer,

"no."
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A/N: i hope you liked the chapter! i actually rewrote this because it didn't feel right to me. but if you enjoyed the chapter, please vote and maybe even follow! 🌸 I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH!! ❤️ just thought i would let you know.