{ p s y c h o // shawn mendes fanfic }

three

Charlotte's POV
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"never have i ever skydived." i say causing Shawn's finger to go down.

"you have?" i ask and his finger goes back up.

"nope." he laughs as my pocket vibrates.

i pull out my phone and an unknown number appears.

"excuse me." i say getting up and answering the phone,

"hello?"

"you don't understand how good it feels to hear your voice." a familiar voice says back.

"Cameron." i breathe into the phone. i haven't seen him in forever.

"its me babe."

"where have you been?"

"i had things to take care of. when's the next time i can visit you?" i look back at Shawn to see him staring at me and waves.

i wave back and flashbacks flood my mind. Cameron and i were dating before he left unexpectedly. it caused me so pain because i had no idea where he was going and if he was to ever return. Macy was there every night wiping my tears that were for Cameron. i believed Cameron was the love of my life but i've realized he wasn't. he was always so secretive.

"never Cameron. i'm sorry but we were done with a year ago when you left." i speak.

"but babe-"

"don't call me that."

"but Charlotte, don't you still love me?"

"of course i still love you. i always have and will, but i'm tired of the secrets."

"then i will tell you everything. please, i want to see your face again."

"fine. meet me at my house by 8 tonight."

"i love you Charlotte. see you then." i end the call without saying it back.

the habit is gone. i walk back to Shawn and sit down like nothing happened but anxiety got the best of me and i burst out into tears, again.

"what happened?" Shawn asks and i manage to pull myself together.

"my ex-boyfriend, is, back." i say taking deep breaths in between each word.

"you might have to explain a bit more." Shawn moves his chair next to me and i lean my head on his shoulder.

i take a deep breath, "one day, about a year ago, Cameron, my ex, texts me saying he has to leave for a while and he can't come back. i spam him with texts asking to see him one last time and for him to explain why but he never answered. i loved him so much and he just left like that. i told him to never leave me and he did. he promised he wouldn't. we would be forever. when he left, i waited by the phone, i wouldn't go to any parties thinking Cameron might come knocking on my door. Macy, my best friend, stayed over everyday comforting me. i loved Cameron. when someone you love just leaves, especially like that, hurts. it makes you think you've done something wrong. now he's finally back and i don't want to see him but at the same time, i want to. i want to seem like i've moved on, even though i haven't."

i look down at my feet and Shawn lifts my head up, "i have an idea, but don't freak out."

i nod and he continues, "let me pretend to be your boyfriend." i am left shocked and speechless.