Tyler's Pov
I kept getting texts from Josh and I just couldn't answer ..
I kept crying over everything.
recently life's just been shit..
I just want to leave.
leave it all behind before it all falls apart. again.
more texts kept coming from Josh
From Josh .
hey Tyler..
we need to talk.
read 7/31/15
that scared the shot out of me..
'we need to talk' God he probably hates me I probably screwed it up somehow..
what even are we?
I decided to change his name to what I thought of him.
cute.
so I did.
from Jishwa :)
Tyler are you okay??
read 7/31/15
does he actually care about me?
thoughts of Josh raced my mind.
from Jishwa
I can't sleep with the thought of you being sad.
read 8/1/15
I don't know what to say usually people don't actually care for me..
the only thought of care was from an old friend, Brendon.
he's always gone with his new boyfriend.. Dallon.. I wish he still cared.
from Jishwa :)
Tyler please.
read 8/1/15
I decided to stop playing games and a avoiding Josh just because I was worried.
To Jishwa :)
I need you.
read 8/2/15
I was worrying that I scared him.. from what he saw he probably thinks I'm dying in my own thoughts and silence.. I'm not saying I'm not.
before I'm even ready the doorbell rings and I attempt to dry my tears before I see Josh.
open door
worried Josh
before I know it hit tears are running down my cold cheeks and my eyes
start to burn the colour red.
he also looked like he'd been crying and stopped eating which made more tears come my way.
"Tyler.." he whispered.
suddenly I'm in his arms being held tight and I wrap my arms around his now, thin waist and let it out.
I take him inside, and we seem
to talk for hours until suddenly it's midnight.
"Tyler?...."
Josh asks, worried laying down next to me.
[edit they are clothed lol]
"yes Josh?"
I say turning toward him.
"that kiss.. i didn't mean to hurt you.."
"I know, Josh I didn't think you liked me.." I say turning around.
Josh grabs and turns me back to his eyes.
"no! no Tyler. I- I do like you.. it's just that fuck, Tyler. I'm a shit person and you deserve someone better. you deserve a perfect person."
he looks away whiling tears from his eyes.
i turn sad and get butterflies.
"Josh.. I don't want a perfect person."
he turns looking surprised, locking eyes with me.
"I don't - I - Josh I want you."
we looked at one another and laid in silence.
Josh wrapped his arms my waist and pulled my against him.
"I want you too Tyler." he said, eyes bright, with a lingering sadness.
-end-
a/n: lol soon you guys are going to want to burn me aahahaha
sorry I'm too lazy to edit this comment if I made mistakes :]
kat out! *wipes tears of fanfiction*
