Momma Goose

Ch.20

Ch.20 Mik's POV

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I hear my door creek as its slowly opened and I hide the test under the sink. I walk out into my room trying to look normal. Blake is sitting on my bed. He looks awake and not to drunk.

I walk over to him and he motions for me to sit next to him on the bed, I get a weird feeling in my stomach it's not a sick or forbidding felling just a confused feeling. "I am so sorry for everything that we have put you through, I can tell you that after tonight you'll probably never see me agin. I can't live with the guilt of all this anymore." Blake whispers to me.

"Do you know if Mike can have kids?" I ask.

"No, he can't he got the thing done i don't remember what it's called."

I get up and walk to to my bathroom I come out holding the test in my hand and I show him it. The test has a little tinny blue plus on the screen, I'm pregnant... And I just found out that Blake is the only one that could be the dad.

He looks at me to shocked to say anything. I'm crying because my worst nightmare has come true, I'm going to be one of those teen girls walking around with a child, everyone will think I'm a whore. Cassy and Sky will never talk to me agin. Damian will be to disgusted to even look at me. I am a disgusting person who doesn't deserve any kind of love or happiness.

"Hey, listen we need to talk about this I mean all the abuse and um other stuff has to stop. They could kill your, I mean mine I mean our child or children." He pauses to take a deep breath, "this is just to much." He gets up and walks out, he passes out with the rest of them. I think so anyway but he closes the door when he walks out. I know he won't remember this in the morning.

*honey baby girl, I'll come over some other time, just sneak out if you have to but I need you at this party* I'm glad she didn't come over today, it's all just to much. I wouldn't be able handling lying to Cassy right now.

It's all just too much, I'm fucking pregnant. I'm still in high school, I'm a senior, I'm raising my little brother, I'm raped and beat on a daily bases. God, my life is just so fucked up. I think I might need help. I don't think I can handle this myself.

I walk back into my bathroom and look at myself in my full length mirror, I turn to the left side and pull my thin tank top up. I don't look any different, but there's a slight glow about me that I can't explain. I slowly turn to mu right, all I can see is the marks that they put on my skin, I can't look past them. I take off my pants and face forward towards the mirror, most people would see a beautiful girl with slight scars on her body but still beautiful non the less. When I look in the mirror all I can see my scars they are all I am and all I'll ever be, in my head I hear all the voices that tell me I'm not good enough and even though I do everything it'll never be enough, I'll always be this sad sad girl that has nothing. I fall to my knees and silently sob, why must I always have this kind of thing happen.

I crawl into my room and onto my bed, thanking god it's Thursday, tomorrow I would tell someone. I think I'm going to tell Alex at the party, I know he's the only one who won't be angry I kept this a secret most of my life.

I slowly drift off to sleep with the voices putting me down for anything and everything, the loudest of those voices is the one of my mother. She should be the one I can turn too but no she is the one who makes me hate myself the most, she has always been the opposite of a mother to me, never letting me grow any self esteem just growing hate and loathing towards myself, she is the reason I can never find any good in anything I do. Out of all of this she is the one who hurt me the most.

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Blake's POV

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'It's all to much,' I think as I take anther shot and pop anther pill, 'I've caused that beautiful girl so much pain and now she's pregnant with my child.' Holy fucking hell I need to get out of here.

I grab my keys and run to my car he carful not to slam the doors, I don't want anyone to try to stop me. I drive to my house and leave a note

Dear swear Mik,

I am so sorry, I should never have raped you. I shouldn't have stood by and watched mike, Noah and Jerry ether. I should have told someone. I know you won't tell anyone so I'm leaving this note not only for you but so the cops know what we've put you through

This is my confession, I Blake Nicholson have been raping Mikayla Roberts for four years since she was 13, I was the last to start raping her. Jerry Roberts, her fucking uncle has been molesting her since she was 6. At ten he told Mike Faust about this and he too began to rape the sweet little girl. When she was 12 Noah Colman began to rape her too. On her right side is our score bored, we carved our initials into her skin and a tally mark for every rape. We have put that young girl through hell and back so many times that I could, no would not ask for forgiveness. I am going to hell not only for killing myself but for raping a young girl for four fucking years.

Mik I am so sorry, I say this not for your forgiveness bit for the sake of our child, or maybe children, I'm not fit to be a parent I deserve a slow painful death but after I write you this letter I'm going to hang myself.

I am known for being the son of two dead millionaires, and I give all my money to the mother of my child, or children, Mikayla Elaine Roberts, to raise our child(ren)

I hope that by writing this those other bastards end up in jail or dead.....

I will forever love you Mik, you have showed me how to feel agin even if it was only for one night

Good bye my dearest love and our child(ren)

Blake Ryan Nicholson

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A/n I got so emotional writing this chapter