The Diary of Eleanor Calder

Chapter 31: September 2015

September 1st, 2015

Diary! It's the first of the month! Leaves are already starting to fall off the trees and children are leaving home bundled up in coats and mittens. My lease on the cottage is ending soon, but I've already chosen to stay. Because of Claude, I have a genuine reason to stay and it's an amazing reason to stay in my opinion. Claude is helping me move furniture today since I've decided to redecorate. I'm always changing my mind about the layout of my home and it's driving Claude a bit bonkers, but he puts up with it. Well, until we meet again. Eleanor.

September 3rd, 2015

Claude and I went to tea today and it was very relaxing. The cafe we went to looked like one straight out of Japan, except the waitresses were a bit too flirty with the men. I totally understand why women flock to Claude. He has dazzling blue eyes, a arctic-white smile, and gorgeous dimples. He's very handsome and smart and I'm so lucky to have him. I dare say he's my whole world. Diary, it's almost midnight and I need to sleep. Ciao! Eleanor.

September 5th, 2015

Is love supposed to make you feel like your free falling about a thousand feet? Does it make you smile from ear to ear for no reason? These are the questions I ask myself every time Claude kisses me. I want to tell him I love him, but I feel like it's too soon. We've been dating for less than a month, but I know these feelings are real. With Louis, everything was immediate. But with Claude, I want to take things slow. I don't want to lose him like I lost Simon. God, it feels so weird writing his name down in this diary. Well, long story short he wasn't who I thought he was and he ripped my heart out and fed it to the wolves. Case closed. Never date a boy with a pretty face, they always end up having ugly hearts. Eleanor.

September 7th, 2015

I've finally moved all my furniture thanks to Claude. I'm starting to tiptoe around him incase I accidentally say something that wasn't meant to be said out loud. I want to stop doing this! I've done this with every relationship I've ever had and it's driving me madder than a hatter! Diary, you don't understand how much I care i he's an idiot for getting a tattoo of her but whatever. Lessoned learned I guess. Eleanor.

September 11th, 2015

Today is a somber day for America, diary. I asked Maddie what she's doing today to remember the lives of the people who perished in the tower bombings, and her answer was simple: live for them. She wants to live her life for the people who never got to celebrate their birthdays or their wedding anniversaries. She wants to live her life for the children. It blew me away how caring she is. She's an extraordinary girl, that one. Eleanor.

September 13th, 2015

Claude and I going to Versailles again today to just walk around and get lunch. His sister is coming in from Burgundy for a wedding dress fitting and I'm very excited to meet her. Of course her fiancé is the heir to a wine company so it makes sense she lives in wine country. Claude said she's a little rough around the edges but she'll soften once she gets to know me. Later! Eleanor.

September 15th, 2015

Adalyn, Claude's sister, looks exactly like him. She's very tall and slender and they have the same piercing blue eyes. I couldn't tell if she liked me when we first met, but when she suggested we go out to dinner, I knew that somewhere deep down she thought I was okay. Claude seemed absolutely delighted that we were getting along and it was nice to see a gigantic smile on his face. All in all, it was a wonderful day. Eleanor.

September 17th, 2015

Perrie called me around six o'clock this morning asking me if Claude and I could come to England for a week and stay with her in her new flat. I tried asking her why she and Zayn called off the engagement, but she kept asking over and over if we would fly out and see her. Needless to say, Claude and I are at the airport now waiting to board our flight. England here we come. Eleanor.

September 19th, 2015

I had no idea Claude had never been outside of France until we touched down at Heathrow. The first thing he did was buy a buttload of souvenir's he's not going to need and then proceeded to change into a shirt that said I HEART ENGLAND. It was super cute and I couldn't help but take pictures of him being a giant, but adorable, dork. Perrie picked us up and looked really broken down and I fought the urge to call Zayn and call him every nasty name I know. Claude hugged her and offered to buy her a Starbucks, but that didn't even make her smile. Now I know why she needs is with her. Eleanor.

September 21st, 2015

Perrie is in shambles and Claude is out buying every ice cream flavour under the sun. She won't eat or speak to anyone but me and I think her hair is starting to fall out in some places. She's starting to look a bit grey and I think it's times to take her to the doctor. This is way beyond Claude and I's control. More later. Eleanor.

September 23rd, 2015

I'm dead inside, diary. Claude and I have been pacing the waiting room at the hospital for almost two days now. Doctors won't tell us what's wrong with Perrie and I'm starting to suspect it's something much more than the breakup blues. I've drunk at least six cups of coffee and eaten four god-awful sandwiches from the cafeteria downstairs. I'll fill you in as much as I can. Eleanor.

September 25th, 2015

Three days and still no word on Perrie's condition. Claude has gone back to Perrie's flat to sleep and I'm still in my sweats and ASU shirt Maddie gave me. I think something terribly wrong is going on and I doubt the doctors know what's happening either. A nurse told me she's been throwing all day and that some of it may or may not be blood (!!!!) WHAT IN THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO MY BEST FRIEND?! I'm truly scared diary, what if Perrie ends up like my mum? I won't be able to handle that. Eleanor.

September 27th, 2015

How do I say this diary? How do I announce something such as this to you without my tears wetting the pages?! How do I tell you I'm going to lose a friend?! Perrie has been diagnosed with Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia as of this morning. Apparently it's in Perrie's body because of an inherited predisposition. One of Perrie's symptoms was anemia and also her liver was swollen. Doctors don't know if she'll survive it due to how young she is and how aggressive the cancer will be on her body. I only pray that she'll come out of this and that she'll never have to go through a hell like this ever again. Eleanor.

September 29th, 2015

I'm sorry to end the month on such a sour note, but I truly didn't see any of this coming. I visited Perrie today and she had her hair wrapped up in a bandana because she didn't want me to see that little chunks of hair have started falling out due to the chemotherapy she's been receiving. Claude flew back to France to let his boss know he'd be gone for a few months and they ended up giving him an assignment here in London which is nice because I don't want Perrie to have just me in this suffocating hospital room. She refused to call her parents or Zayn about this and I ended up lecturing her about it for an hour. So stubborn. Anyways, I hope better days are ahead. Eleanor.

BONUS ENTRY

September 30th, 2015

I woke up this morning to Claude frantically shaking me awake, saying something was wrong with Perrie. I shot out of bed and called the hospital, only to find out her CLL has gotten worse and there's only a number of months until she succumbs to it.
I ordered them to call her parents and Zayn because she needs them more than she needs me. I'll continue to update you throughout this and I hope you can bear with me. I can only hope October isn't as evil as September has been. Eleanor.

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A/N: IM SORRY. But the ending of the book will be one everyone will love. Enjoy! -Maggie xx

Songs I listened to while writing.

Drag Me Down: One Direction

Lean On: Major Lazer x DJ Snake ft. MØ

Achille's Last Stand: Led Zeppelin

Scare Me: Major Lazer ft. Peaches and Timberlee