Is it safe?

Feeling myself ?

" I gotta stay high all the time, to keep you out my mind oh whoa"

WOAH that scared me, I was so deep in my thoughts I forgot to turn my alarm off.

I wasn't asleep I was wide awake since 2:30 my only means of peace had been taken away from me.

I slowly got out of bed and didn't quite feel myself, I felt more... empty.

I made my way to the shower and jumped in,

after 30 minutes I felt refreshed but still had that emptiness in me, I haven't felt this way in a long time eh I will just let it Passover.

I made my way to my closet and tried deciding what to wear I didn't feel like wearing any colour so I just put on my vest and leggings which had a cut on the knees. I didn't feel comfortable so I tried searching for something else to cover up my arms and shoulders, I scanned my closet until I came across a jumper that I hadn't worn in a long time it was a black jumper with a grey anchor in the middle with some detailing. I used to love this jumper I wonder what changed...

I finished changing and had decided to do simple makeup look today I wasn't in the mood but I'm pretty sure no one would like to look at my deadbeat face, I decided to apply a light layer of Maybelline BB cream to give my face an equal coverage I didn't exactly quite bother with concealer and all that, I decided to do a winged eyeliner and apply mascara  then some Nars lip gloss in  the shade Istria, it was a beautiful natural colour which is why its nearly finished. I didn't exactly have any clue what to do with my hair and I didn't want to tie my hair up again so I decided to just let it out keep it wavy  and stick a red bow in my hair. I was now ready.

I went downstairs to be greeted by the emptiness of the house and my soul, I dont know whats wrong with me today, I didn't feel like eating breakfast so I just drank half a cup of milk and decided to head out. I went upstairs again to get my batman backpack and shoved my purse, headphones, keys and oyster card inside. I decided to take the bus today since I was going to be early than everyone else by an hour. I left the house, locked up and waited near the local bus stop waiting patiently for my bus to come, after 7 minutes my bus had come and I went onto the top deck and chose a seat which was  near to the back I plugged my headphones in and scrolled through my music list only to choose an upbeat song which would hopefully help wake me up and maybe even my mood a bit.

After 30 minutes I arrived at my destination and went downstairs I thanked the driver as I got off and made my way to the familiar building and headed inside. I made my way to the room I was meant to meet Nathan in an hour and opened all the windows and decided to stretch. After stretching I plugged my phone and decided to dance to the same song which I listened to in the bus.

An hour had gone by and soon everyone started to come in but one person caught my attention it was Nathan but he had his arm around Stephanie as she was laughing as if he told her a joke I felt something in my stomach, I felt even more upset, I remembered when I used to be like that...

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Hey guys its Nadia hope you guys enjoy this update and wow you guys are awesome 174 reads so thank you for all the reads and all the votes and all the comments they mean a lot and shout out to BizzlexCocaine for voting for every chapter since the beginnig thank you I love you guys

Love Nadia xxx