Is it safe?

Being able to cry on a shoulder

That was all it took for me to break down all over again,

I couldn't hold back all the emotions I had bottled up over the past 3 years, in the end I missed him, I had no one else in my life for me to enjoy their company, I had nearly lost everything that year, when I finally got everything back on track I just had to be reminded of him why?, Did I do anything wrong to be punished? But why did he contact me and how? I thought he was gone.

Nathan's POV...

As soon as I mentioned the name Rick Nadia's smile had dropped and her eyes started to water up. Oh God did I say something wrong ?That was when Nadia had let her tears out, I had never seen her in this state. I didn't know what to do, so I did the only thing one should do for anyone at this point of breaking. I moved forward and wrapped around Nadia whilst she had her head in her hands.

"Sshhh Nadia, what's wrong? Did I say anything wrong?

She didn't answer but obviously she couldn't she was sat here bawling her eyes out.

"Nadia? Please talk to me?"

She sniffed her nose and cleared her throat.

"No it's nothing, I'm alright" She lied to me, clearly she wasn't a good liar.

"Nadia look at me ... please?"

she started to lift her head up and rubbed her eyes and slowly yet steadily she looked at me. Her eyes were puffed and red. I didn't know what to say so I offered her something everyone needs at this point, I slowly lifted my arms up and signalled her an offer of a hug. She looked hesitant at first but she came and hugged me and it was as if our arms fit together perfectly, like she was meant to be in my arms forever.

Nadia's POV...

He offered me a hug he was really nice, I looked at him and debated whether I should accept his offer or not but I couldn't I need someone right now, I've been alone for two months with no one to cry to, no one to listen to me I've been so alone I've even cried myself to sleep. Everyone thinks I'm a jolly person and I don't have my own demons well they are wrong I have been fighting my demons for so long, I'm growing tired and I'm going to soon lose this battle. so I did what I wanted I moved forward into his arms and his arms instantly tangled up behind me and I felt a funny feeling in the pit of my stomach I felt ... loved.

My arms were twisted round his neck and with my head on his shoulders and that when the waterfall also known as my tears had started flowing all over again. All the feelings I had bottled up for so long had been let out it was as if Nathan had given me an opportunity to open my treasure chest of emotions that had been locked up for years on end. At this point I was full on bawling my eyes out and then what happened next had shocked me Nathan then started to stroke my hair I mean I thought he hated me because of what poison Stephanie had injected into his brain about me, this one small act of concern that Nathan showed had helped calm me down so much.

20 MINUTES LATER...

By now I had stopped crying and Nathan did not let go of me once instead he held me tighter almost as if he didn't want me to go anywhere hmmm strange, By now I was really tired and drained of energy. I lifted my head and saw a massive wet patch on Nathan's shoulder, at this point I felt a little embarrassed I just cried on someone who didn't necessarily like me.

"Urm Nathan I'm sorry I ruined your shirt" I looked to side and my cheeks flamed up

He did a small cute chuckle which made me look at him.

"That's alright don't worry about it, are you feeling better love?"

"Yeah thank you I guess I really needed that but I'm so sorry about your shirt" I replied whilst my cheeks were still burning up

"Don't worry about it babe"

Just then I felt a really warm sensation in my heart when Nathan called me love and babe it was then I put my head on Nathan's shoulder he looked at me I think to check if I was still crying, I just closed my eyes and inhaled and exhaled trying to steady myself.

"I'm tired Nathan" I spoke up from the silence that surrounded us

"Want me to take you to bed" He asked me

"Yes please if you don't mind"

It was then Nathan carried me bridal style and I had closed my eyes, before long he had made it to my room and had laid me down on my back by now I had opened my eyes and had reached for my blanket and draped the cosy cloth over me and with that he had started to make his way out of my door.

I don't know what had come over me when I said

"Nathan?"

"Yes love?"

Again that warmth damn.

"Can you stay with me tonight? please?

"Love I need to get home the boys might be worried"

"Oh... ok I might see you tomorrow if not ill tell Ryan to text you"

I couldn't help but show the disappointment in my expressions.

"Goodnight Nathan" That was all I said before turning the other way and trying to sleep, I didn't hear a reply from Nathan instead I heard some rustling and felt someone get into the bed on the other side as me, I had opened one eye but couldn't see the person only the silhouette but I had recognised the person by their cologne it was Nathan, he looked towards me

"You don't mind do you?"

I debated whether I should let him or not.

"Are you not gonna change?" I questioned him

"I just took my shirt off, it needs to dry anyway".

"Well ok I guess you can but I need to change so ill be back."

I got out of bed with all the energy I could and grabbed my pyjamas and headed to the bathroom, I brushed my teeth and washed my face and tried sorting out the blotchiness and redness in my face and had started to change. I had taken my leggings and top off and had put my pyjama top on until my head started to spin and there was a sudden pain in my spine to which I screamed out loud and the darkness had clouded my mind...

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hey guys its Nadia  think this chapter is long but let me know what you think and yeah what do you think will happen to Nadia.

anyways gtg laptop about to run out of charge lol I wrote this listening to Chris Brown songs lol ill see you guys

Love Nadia x