Finding Love Series: When Love Gets Hard (Book 3) #TheWattys2017

Making Decisions (Chapter.13)

*April & Leo*

"Leo we have to talk." I said refusing to look at him.

"April I don't have time did you hear that Lance is missing? More important things to do right now then have a chat with you." Leo responded rudely.

"Leo it's about Lance."

"Well why didn't you say so? What is it?"

"Lance isn't missing. I took him with me on vacation without telling you. It's just you wouldn't let me see him any other way. So yes I took him. He's fine he's healthy and he had a good time." I repsonded.

"Are you fucking kidding me? Where is he?" Leo snapped.

"Lance come in here." I said.

He ran in and hugged Leo.

"I'm so happy you're okay. I love you. I was so worried about you. Oh Lance." Leo said then hugged Lance even tighter.

"Leo I'm.."

"No.

Lance go to your room. I need to talk to your mother." Leo said.

Lance ran to his room and shut his door.

"Well I'm glad he was fine. You can leave now. Goodbye." Leo snapped.

"Look I know you're pissed. But I'm not a bad mother. You know that. I want time with my son. I gave birth to him. We both lost Lane. You seem to keep forgetting that. We are also both separated. We are both going through it Leo. I'm not paranoid anymore. I just want time with my son. Even though we are separated he's still my son too. I deserve time with him too. Now I will take you to court if you don't let me have time with him. I want at least visitation." I snapped.

"Why can't you just make things easier and go? Just go and not come back. Lance doesn't need you. He has me. He also has my parents and Wes and Beth. We will be fine. So just go." He said.

"Leo no! Lance is my fucking son. I did nothing to be a bad mother. You will not fucking keep me from my own son. I've been nice. I've gone to extremes. I've given you your space. Time has run out. Give me my fucking son Leo!" I yelled.

"Damn. Fine. You can have him every other Friday. You will bring him back Saturday morning. He will be by 8:00 am. That's the only deal. Take it or leave it April."

"I'll take it. Every other Friday. He has to be home by 8:00 am Saturday. What time can I get him on Friday?"

"You can get him at 4 from daycare." Leo responded.

"Okay."

"Now leave next Friday you can have him. Bye." Leo said coldly.

"Bye." I replied then went home.

*Wes & Beth*

"I've had my time. I'm ready to sit down and really talk about this and try to understand Beth." I said then I sat down on the sofa and took a deep breath.

"Okay let's talk. I don't know what there is to talk about but sure let's talk." Beth replied then sat down next to me.

"Why do you keep leaving? What do you do when you leave? What is causing all of these random behaviors from you?"

"I leave because the stress just gets to be to much for me. When I leave I go to the club. Or I go to the movies. Or I go to stores. I do anything that gives me time to myself. Stress causes all of this behavior. That's all I know." Beth responded in a sad tone.

"Babe all you had to say is that you've been feeling overwhelmed. You should be having time to yourself. I mean you're on maternity leave so you're stuck with both kids all day every day by yourself. I just never really thought about it. How about once a week you go out and do something by yourself or with a friend? That's a reasonable idea. "

"I'd really like that. I choose Saturday evening." Beth said.

"Okay that is fine. I'm so glad we sorted all of this out." I said smiling. 

*April & Beth*

"So what has happened with the whole you leaving everyday and Wes getting pissed?" I asked.

"Well hew agreed having both kids all day everyday by myself is stressful. I mean I take care of both of them. I also clean and do normal house hold stuff. So basically every Saturday night I get to go out. I can do whatever but it will either be by myself or with a friend. I'm pretty happy about it. It think it will help a lot. I don't think I'll act crazy or irrational anymore. I mean I'll get my break. So what happened with you and Leo? Are you two staying together? Or you getting divorced? Or you just separated still? Also what is happening with the whole Lance thing? Is he going to give you time? Or what?" Beth asked.

"I think that will help you a lot too. Every mom needs a break some time. I think that will solve all of your issues. Leo and I haven't talked about us at all. So at the moment we are still just separated. But I'm happy about that because I honestly don't know what I want. I don't know If I want to be with him or not. He's changed so much since we lost Lane. I do get to see Lance now though. Twice a month I do. Every other Friday I pick him up from daycare at 4 pm. Then he has to be back with Leo by 8:00 am on Saturday. But I will secretly be taking Leo to court. I will get full custody just wait." I responded.

"Wow that is like no time with Lance. I don't blame you for wanting to take him to court. I would do the same thing. It is amazing how things have changed so much lately. I don't know what happened."

"I know what you mean. I don't either honestly." I said.

*Wes & Leo*

"I mean I think Beth's one night out will help a lot. Don't you?" I asked.

"Yeah it should. I don't see why it wouldn't." Leo responded.

"Good I want things to go back to normal so bad for us."

"Yeah I can see that. I don't know what I want to be honest. Things aren't same since we lost Lane. I mean I'm letting April take Lance every other Friday now. She picks him form daycare at 4 pm then he has to be back by 8 am on Saturday. That scares me bad enough. It terrifies me. I only gave her those days to shut her up to be honest. I don't know if I want her back or not. I just don't know anymore. She hasn't brought us up either though so I don't know." Leo said.

"I think you should be giving her more time than that with Lance honestly. She's a great mom and I know you agree with that. She did not kill Lane it was not her fault. You have to come to terms with that. The person who stabbed her killed Lane. You should be mad at them. You need to decide if you want to be with her or not. Don't continue to wait. Time is going by. Lance is getting older. Not knowing what you're going to do about your relationship is bad for him. It's unstable for him." I said.

"I agree. I think I need to sit down with her again."

" I think you do too." I responded.