Is It Worth It (2nd)

Chapt. 17 - Zoe

"Whats up ma?" I walked in Whitney house as she and a beautiful lil girl open the door. "Hey." We hugged and I kneeled down to the lil girl. "Ursa?" She nodded her head. I tried to pick her up but she ran behind her mama. I can't lie I got in my feelings a lil.

"Why she don't kno me?" Whitney rolled her eyes as she walked off. "Thats your fault Zoe. After we broke up you left me in the rain with OUR daughter." I felt my blood starting to boil. "You could've been telling her about me. You could've been showing her pictures or something." Whitney stopped what she was doing and sent Ursa to her play room. "You can't be fuckin serious right now! I guess me showing her pictures and telling her who you are is going to make her instantly fall into your arms when she see you. She doesn't fuckin kno you! She has no connection with you and you can't be mad at nobody but your damn self." I shook my head. "I bet she know all your lil girlfriends though." She laughed and shook her head. "No, she doesn't. I don't allow it cause they all do the same thing you did, leave me out in the cold. They can leave me and break my heart but they not gone leave and break hers to." I stood there feeling sorry for myself. Whitney walked up to me and stood in my face. "Hold your head up, build a bridge and happily climb yo ass over it. She's 5 now, 5. Only thing you can do is be here for her, build that connection, gain her love. But if you don't plan on staying this time then leave now while she's not looking, she's not around, she won't see you." I stood there for a minute thinking. "You really gone stand there and think about this. What the fuck is there to think about Zoey! Thats your daughter, she has your last name. Are you really gone sit there and think about this?!" Tears ran down her face as she tried not to yell. "Why you crying?" She shook her head. "Im crying tears for her. Tears that you are causing that I don't ever want to see come down her face while I'm left here alone to wipe them away." I sighed. "Its not that I don't want to be here. Its my girlfriend." Whitney laughed a lil before finally sitting down. "She doesn't know and your scared to tell her?" I nodded. "Typical. Typical fuckin Zoe! You did me the same fuckin way except it wasn't a child. You were cheating with a stripper bitch! Being scared to tell your girl you cheating is more understandable then not being able to tell your girl about your KID, your fuckin kid! This shit doesn't even surprise me, not one bit."

We finished talking and I got a lil conversation in with Ursa too. I got to tell Jas, I can't walk out on my daughter. She doesn't even know me. If anybody know me my daughter should know me. I chose the perfect girl to have the perfect kid with and I'm not even around. That's about to change though. It has to.