Thank you for reading this. I hoped you understood any of my feelings I shared, I hoped you maybe learned something from it or at least enjoyed reading it. Maybe I overreacted, was too dramatic, but I was always one who felt too much, someone who was 'too' sensitive and I used to see it as a bad thing, a weakness, but not anymore. I learned that being sensitive is good, because it means that you care, it means that after all the hell you've been through, you haven't let it get to you and become bitter. We need some more people that aren't bitter in this cruel world.
At the time I was with this person, I had serious insecurity problems. It took me a long time to overcome it and be happy with myself and maybe that's the reason it never worked out between him and me. I learned that I need to be happy with myself first, before I let myself fall in love again. I didn't love myself at that point in my life and I needed someone who would tell me I was good enough and beautiful and when that person wasn't there anymore, I crumbled, because why would that person leave if he told me all of this stuff, did it mean it wasn't true? I promised myself that I would never feel that low of myself again and that I didn't need anyone to make me feel good enough, I was already that. I learned to respect and love myself again and to be proud of myself, because it's okay to be proud of yourself. You should be! You've done already amazing things and you should be happy and proud of that.
I am in a happy place now, feeling sure about myself and I am proud of that. I hope you can feel that about yourself too, everyone should feel this way about themselves. I still miss him sometimes, but that's normal, because he played a big part in my life at one point and you can't really forget that. It doesn't mean I still think it's going to be okay between us and it's not something I long for. I am happy without him.
Thank you for listening,
Quirine
