anxious and alone |dnf|

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George's POV:

"I'm so happy for you Clay. I didn't know if I'd ever get to speak to you again. I didn't know if I'd ever be able to tell you how much I love you." I say quickly, meaning every word. The call goes silent. My heart sinks into my knees with each passing silent second. My heart rate picks up. "Clay?" I ask quietly.

"You love me?" He asks, voice almost breaking. "Yes Clay, I love you so fucking much. I have loved you for so long and hard. I'm so sorry that I never said anything before."

"I love you too George." He says. Butterflies fill my stomach to the point I almost puke. We stay on call for hours as we catch up. He tells me everything that happened in the halfway house and every detail about his roommates. I lost to every word he says with a smile on my face. I sit on my bed leaning against the wall, I've never felt peace like this.

I hear him yawn quietly. "What time is it Clay?" I ask. "Almost 5." He laughs to himself. "Go to sleep." I don't let him argue.

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Over the next few days we text and call whenever we can. Even after every hour, every day, we still find more and more to talk about. My heart fills up more and more each day.

"I want to be with you." The text lingers unsent for a few moments, my breath shaky as I press send. He reads it almost instantly. "I want to be with you too." My cheeks begin to burn. "I still have my visa yk, I could come to Florida again."

"You want to?"

"Fuck yeah."

"Okay <3"

Clay and I plan for a time I should fly out. Whether I should pack up and move over or just stay for a little while. We decide it's best if just for now I stay for a couple weeks. I book a plane ticket for the following Saturday.

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My alarm blares loudly beside my bed. My room is still dark and cold. I check the time and it displays 3am. The flight is in two hours.

I groggily get out of bed and brush my teeth. I pull on some sweatpants and a hoodie. My bag was packed last night so I grab it and pull it out the door with me. I step inside the uber and begin the drive to the airport. The entire ride my stomach feels as if I'm on a roller coaster.

I go through security and wait outside the boarding area for an hour. I decide to grab a sandwich and water. My eyes have dark circles underneath them and I yawn every so often. Eventually my plane begins to board passengers and so I get in line.

I push my luggage into the overhead compartment and take a seat next to a young lady and her toddler. She smiles at me kindly with tired eyes as her daughter sleeps against her shoulder. After a while the plane takes off and I fall asleep for a few hours.

I wake up to sunlight peeking into the plane. I try to see out the window and see the ocean. There is still 5 hours left until we land in Florida. My stomach rumbles loudly so I peel back the plastic around my sandwich.

The rest of the flight I try to sleep or listen to music or watch movies. My stomach flutters the entire time.

I can't wait to see him.

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Sorry that the chapters are kinda short I don't know what else to write

Also next chapter is the final chapter ;)