SEVENTEEN

Chapter 25

I'm sorry for all the sad chapters lately fam <3

Song - The Manuel by Eddy Kim I love him so much.

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Joshua's POV

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I could feel the giant breeze when I opened the door into the studio, it wasn't a good feeling since it was already cold outside. I sulked all the way to the little coffee kitchen we had, I could see from the corner of my eyes that everyone was already looking at me. I tugged the sleeves of my sweatshirt and rubbed my tear stained face, it still stung badly and I couldn't get it to stop. And I don't know if it will ever stop.

I struggled getting a cup from the bag once I did I filled it up with warm water. I ran my fingers through my hair making it slightly stick up, I held the cup with my two hand and took long sips taking long breaths in between. I could feel my legs collapsing any moment I couldn't hold myself up anymore. I slugged walking all the way to a chair in the corner liking out the window, I didn't want to look at the members right now I didn't want to look at anyone right now. I placed the cup on the table making the water shuffle and splash. I held my chin with my palm supporting it sadly I stared at the apartment building that was across from the dorm, the one where she lived in.

I stared at it for a long time before I noticed a girl opening the curtains from the apartment, and it so happened to be the girl with pink hair and that made my heart hurt so much. She opened white curtains that I remember she had struggling with when she bought it and I had to help her with it. I chuckled to myself thinking about, I stared back at the cup of water.

It stayed still and calm wasn't moving or shaking anything like that, it was just there. Nothing was happening it was resting on the table.

"Hey." I saw someone slam their body into the chair across from me, it was Dino. He never looked so sad, his face was drooping and his hair was flat from his hat covering it, and he looked like he got no sleep either. I waved and smiled at him, it was hard to force a smile when I haven't in so long.

"You know we're sad too, we loved her." Loved her. I loved her, I still do love her from all the short but memorable moments we had. The amount of pain she gave me was unpredictable, the time I first met her I just couldn't focus on anything. Even when she would just talk it would give me the chills and make me fall for her even harder. I would of never thought that I would fall in love with someone like her, someone that enjoys the fact that she can speak freely anything on her mind, the confidence in her finger is more than you have in your whole body.

"Yeah." I replied back rubbing my thumb on the paper cup. Looking back to the window where I saw her, she wasn't in front of the window anymore she was gone, But I sill saw the curtains open.

"Tell me what love is." I heard him plainly say and I turned my head giving him my whole attention. What. I stared at him confused, I don't need to tell him what love is. He has to feel it and figure it out himself because everyone has a different perspective about love. It can be beautiful but it could also hurt badly. He tapped his fingers against the table waiting for a answer, I don't know what to tell him honestly.

"I don't think I need to te-" I got shushed by a door opening, I returned my attention back to just see that it was Minghao. But Dino's eyes were still glued to the door, I tried to get his attention back by snapping my fingers in front of him but he didn't listen. I trailed my eyes back to the door. No.

No.

No.

No.

I could feel my hand pressuring the cup squeezing it until I felt water pour down my hand. I looked down at my feet my body was shaking and I couldn't stay still in my seat it's only a glance at her that could kill me. She's not supposed to be here, she's not supposed to be in my life anymore no matter how much I want her to be. I don't want to make this my fault again if she gets in trouble. It's only been a few hours since I saw her and why does it hurt to see her again. The one person who I've never experienced this kind of love before but then again the person that broke their heart as long as mine. I be happy to just smash the window right here and jump out of it just to get away from her disquieting and deep brown eyes from meeting my blain ones. And just to get away from her skin, the warm aroma that she always gives off and the gentle touch of her skin.

She stood still next to Minghao before bowing to everyone, with a smile on her face. How in the earth could she be smiling during this, I could barely force a small smile and she can flash a silly smile anytime she wants. I tried to not smile thinking about her but a little chuckle came out. I dropped the paper cup my hands shivering with water all over it, I freaking murdered that cup. Seeing her face was hard to handle on itself, it made it hard to resist just grabbing her and connecting our both pair of lips.

"Jisoo."I let her sweet tone of voice melt into my head, I didn't want to speak my throat was dry and I had no words to say. I don't think I'm supposed to be talking to her anyway, there's always people watching. And knowing our fans they would probably spill. I blinked a couple of times before I saw Dino move out of the seat in front of me and make way for her. She was in the same thing I saw her in last except her face was cleaned up and she looked less tired. I brought my hands up to my hair and shook it making her smile with tilting her eyebrows. I missed her smiling naturally giving off her own beauty.

"Min-Young." I whispered, I don't think she heard me because she was still the way she was. I felt my chest pound up to the point where it felt like my heart was about to just burst out, saying her name was just enough apparently, because it made my body freeze and made it where if anyone touches my skin they'll say it's cold.

"I had the feeling you were gonna be like this." She said while trailing her eyes from the ground all the way to my face. It's like every time I look at her my love grows and grows even more for her, it isn't normal. Her hand reached for her bag the strap slung over her shoulder, she grabbed something out and put it on the table. I stared at the object and laughed a little bit while squeezing the object in my hands it was this small, but had big value for me. I held the stuffed bunny in my palm smiling remembering that moment where she wrapped her arms around my waist, tightening her grip on me, close to my chest where I could smell her perfume and that was the day the poor guy who thought he could grab her. Her. My love.

I saw her tilt her head smiling at me, I clenched the stuffed animal even more I was smiling again.

"Good your smiling again." I heard her mumble. I want to just kiss her out of the blue just like I did when I realized I actually liked her, my head was just urging for it.

"Yeah."

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ALOT OF YOU HAVE BEEN ASKING IF THIS IS THE END NO IT IS NOT I DONT PLAN ON STOPING THIS STORY!