SEVENTEEN

Chapter 26

:( that's all I gotta say.

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Min-Young's POV

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I looked at him for a long time seeing him smile, he looked like he needed it. Don't get me wrong I need it too, seeing him smile made me smirk after well all of that happened. I don't know even what he felt after that, did he feel guilt because I hope not. I pursed my lips together staring at him squeeze the little stuffed animal together, how is this possibly working. How is us working? We all knew this was gonna happen at one point but I never knew it would hurt this hard. I've barely made progress throughout theses days and I feel already tired of this whole mess. I don't even know why I ever imagined that Joshua and I would work in the first place. I was so stupid back then, I should of never came to Korea. I should of just stayed in Japan should of just stayed with my mother. This would of never happened.

"Why are you here? I don't wanna tell you again." He sighed while dropping the stuffed animal on the table and leaning back in his chair. I took a deep breath but then stopped, I didn't know what to say. Did I wanna see his face again? I did miss him I was expecting for us to just hang out a little bit at my apartment but instead it turned out to be something way more than just "cuddling". I pushed back a piece of my hair while tangling my fingers nervously, this was harder than I thought.

"I mean, the company didn't have something against being friends. Right?" I rambled. His face was surprised really I didn't know how to explain it. But I was right all the company had against was us being an actual thing, they can't have something against being friends. I shivered at the thought of it, Joshua and I just being friends. It was better than just ignoring the fact that we can't stand being away from eachother. I can't say that I don't love him, I've already said it in front of him, I confessed to him and I can't take it back because no matter how much I want to say it I can't find myself saying I don't love you anymore. It's lying to him and myself.

He smirked a little bit making my body heat up more, I just needed that. I needed him smiling again I needed him to see that he could be happy without me. Because sooner or later he's gonna have to leave me and I don't want him to be sappy the rest of his life because one girl left him. A girl that's not worth a idol's heart but somehow he accepted it he accepted me in his life. I set my hands on the table making my chest lean on my wrist,my hair brushed on my face I didn't even bother trying to push it away anymore.

"Friends?" I whispered. He nodded back while reaching for my hand to I'm guessing hold it, no matter how much I wanted him to grab it and just make me feel the same fireworks I felt every time he touched me, feeling the warmness of his hand in mine. I couldn't let him, like I said friends. He frowned for a bit until he noticed what I was doing, finally this idiot. I could tell he was kinda tense his feet kept on tapping rapidly, this is hard for both of us. We've lived with the fact that we love each other for some time and it's just harder faking that we don't.

I blinked a few times before I saw him spazzing in his seat, he was basically pulling his hair out while stretching out his back on the chair. He groaned loudly while trying to calm down, I'm pretty sure everyone was looking already seeing him look like he was having a seizure.

"Why is this so hard?!" He screamed while covering his face from everyone's eyes. I chuckled a bit, I heard the latch of the door open. It was a women, a women that had a jet black suit on with her greased hair pulled back in a small bun, she had her cellphone in her hand and she slapped it together. I saw her cold eyes meet mine and I just looked away in the other direction, who the hell is this women? Whoever she is, looks like someone spit in her breakfast which I wouldn't be surprised if Woozi did that.