SEVENTEEN

Chapter 27

Hm guess who's back. After a very depressing weekend, it's me author-nim. I mean I still feel pretty lost and weird but I'm getting better don't worry. Thank you all for your nice comments and such.

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Min-Young's POV

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What the hell is wrong with me? Thinking I could just be friends with him, no hand holding or no kissing. I was not enjoying this the first boy thats made me feel this way and I had to become friends with him. I had a uneasy feeling in my stomachs that just wouldn't go away. I was glad that I could speak to him freely again but I couldn't love him anymore. The feeling sunk more into my body, I didn't like it I don't think anyone would. Friends. Friends with Joshua. Friends with Jisoo. Friends with a Korean pop idol.

Friends. Well okay I can do this, I don't wanna seem like I can't do it, easy as that right? I put one foot in front of each other while walking to the stairs of  my apartment building. I reached with my hands for my phone in my bag. Shit where is it? I didn't take it out when I was the other, no I have everything on there. At the fucking studio wasn't it?

I scrunched up my hair giving it a messy look while walking down the set of stairs I already went up on. I exited out the door with the door man waving at me. I didn't even bother waving back to him, I have files on there about my dad. I shivered not because of the cold but the word dad I haven't used it in so long. What the hell is wrong with me. Everything apparently, by those are secret files for gods sake, it took me forever to claim. I did not want to lose those this quickly.

I skipped my feet across the street making it all the way to the door, I couldn't see anything through the windows. I pushed the door with my hands taking a giant gulp of air beige I stepped inside. I froze at everyone's eyes on mine, I only saw regular people here not seventeen boys doing some random shit. One of the men in the center pointing at things for I guess a crew? He looked at me strangely, his eyes were traveling my body which made me feel uncomfortable, he had a navy blue suit on that looked I guess professional on him. I crossed my arms in embarrassment but thank god everyone went back to what they were doing. I tapped my combat boots and took one step trying to get a glimpse of my phone. I couldn't see anything with everyone shuffling around.

"Sohee?" I almost tripped at hearing that name, what. I turned back quickly with a confused look on my face to see the man in he suit pursue his lips, how did he know my mothers name. I raised my eyebrow, he thought I was my mother or something? Well another question how the hell does he know my mother. I took a glimpse at his name tag and it said CEO, ah so I'm guessing he's the CEO of seventeen.

"No, but how do you know Sohee?" It felt weird calling her by her real name instead of mom or mother. He chuckled a bit with his creepy red trailing me again, I was a nervously tangled my fingers behind my back as he took steps forward to me. I just came here for my phone that's it I shouldn't be talking to this random guy.

"Hehe she was I former lover of mine." Fuck no. My mom wouldn't love anther man after my father, or anyone past that. She told me that my father was the only one that made her feel like something. And I'm pretty sure this creepy old guy was not the answer. The corners of his lips grinned into a really sort of like joker grin. He crossed his legs together while gesturing everyone out of the room, which scared me a little bit. Everyone left the room leaving the sets of instruments behind. I rubbed my arms with my hands feeling a really cold presence.

"You know after she got a daughter it was all gone after that I mean no one wants to take care of a annoying little kid right?" My eyes felt like watering, and just pouring out. What was happening. My whole body was shaking and I couldn't think anymore, I didn't want this feeling in my body anymore. He can't be. No he is not if he was my father he would love me back. He would remember all the happy moments I had with him. He wouldn't regret it, the only thing he would regret was leaving my mom. Is this really happening, I felt drops of water stream down my face my eyes were puffy and I was fucking sobbing. He looked at me while walking forward, I stepped back on my heel trying to hide my face that was looking down. He was here the whole time he was I this building the whole time. How many times have I passed him. I glance at him having a worried face trying to come closer to me, my body started to tremble. Every time he got a inch closer to me, I felt his hand brush on my forearm.

I didn't know what to feel, this man right here was my father the man who left me. The real reason why I came here. My body was shaking and I'm pretty sure he could feel it too. I tried not to wail or scream that the man who's been missing for most of my life is right here. "Hey kid are you okay?"

Fuck no I'm not, he basically said earlier that he didn't want me to be alive, he wouldn't of left my mother if I wasn't here. Drops of tears ran down my face and trailed off my chin, I didn't like this one bit. My eyes got puffy more and I couldn't take it, his grip on me tightened but he soon let it go when I dropped to the floor, my hands were on the floor catching every tear that fell off. I heard one of the doors open but I didn't manage to look. I didn't want to look, because if I look then surely enough I'll take a glance at him and I don't want too. I listened as the steps rapidly got faster until I felt a hand on mine.

"What the hell." I heard Joshua curse, I don't know if I should be happy or not. I felt Joshua squeeze my hands harder and I listened closely as he was ranting to the CEO. I squeezed my eyes together scrunching up my face trying to stop everything hoping everything would just go the fuck away. I wanted it to go away. I wanted Joshua to go away. I wanted my dad to go away.

"I don't know she started crying and you know I didn't know what to do." I slammed my hand on the floor my face still down from anyone seeing. I tried to hold myself up and I did weakly. I put my feet in motion heading for the door and once I got out of it I slammed it.

I walked across the street trying to not look as ugly. I guess, I wiped my face with the sleeve of my coat and started going forward.

All that and I didn't find my phone.

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this is short chapter but like eh. manager and CEO I just need to know if their the same thing are they the same thing because then I'll change it?

anyways sorry for the like week long wait I said I would be better in a couple days but I spent more time I guess. It was a really depressing week but I'm fine now.im not like the best I am but I'm definitely better than I was the other day. Okay to be honest I'm not just saying this but a got a lot of messages and comments that day when I announced than I might discontinue this story. i was about to or about to announce that I'm discontinue it on like Wednesday because I felt really bad about you guys trying to cheer me up. Not that I didn't appreciate it all its just I felt like I was doing too much for you guys and our guys were wasting your time to write those long giant ass messages, especially for me. I am just a another author remember that, I'm 13 like come on don't waste your time on a 13 year old guys. eighth grade guys. But literally all of you who wrote those messages to me, I mean they didn't really change my thought about discontinuing it but they did show me how you guys love this story apparently I don't know why but you guys do and if I just let it go I mean I don't know.

but thank you all.