SEVENTEEN

Chapter 35

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Min-Young's POV

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I promise. I promise. I promise that I'll be back in time for the comeback of Boys Be. I promise. I promise. I promise that I will be there on time watching them perform their hearts out on stage for Boys Be. Why is this so freaking hard for me? Oh yeah that's right once I step on that plane then that's it, I will never come back here I'll be forced again to live with my mother for the rest of my life. I've changed so much from then to now oh my god, I cut my hair, I dyed my hair not to mention PINK. And another thing I freaking fell in love with someone I can't fall out of love with.

And now I wish I didn't promise him, but he was looking at me in the eyes staring at me, holding my hands with his warm touch asking me with all his heart if I would promise him that I would come back in time for their showcase. I felt horrible knowing that I won't be able to fulfill that promise, I really wish I never talked to him about this, I wish he never made me promise to him. Because right now my heart hurts too much just thinking about it imagine the day it's gonna actually happen.

I tangled my fingers together feeling the skin of the back of my hand it was dry. I slammed my body onto my bed, I arched my back on the sheets. Come one Min-Young why'd you do it. I felt the ends of my hair brush upon my neck, I really didn't want to do this. I wish I could of never said I promise. I twisted my body to see the time, go to sleep Min-Young.

11:57 pm.

My eyes were fluttering, my body felt rested and weary. I wish I could just sleep for the rest of my life I just want to be laying down in my warm sheets, closing my eyes, not having to think about anything. I felt my eyes close but I wasn't really asleep I was close to it but you know those times where you just close your eyes thinking your asleep but your not. All I could hear was the noise of my fan spinning around above me until a freaking doorbell rang. Why does my life have to suck so much.

I lazily put on my pink fuzzy slippers and every time I took step it made that slap noise on the floor. I was to lazy to fix my hair and everything I didn't want to do anything but sleep come on. Who's ringing doorbells this late? I slapped my hand on the doorknob and unlocked it. I focused my vision seeing the little curly fried hair, b-boy over here. I giggled a little bit at his hair but it looked cute on him, Minghao could make anything work to be honest. He could be wearing a trash bag and he would look like a million bucks and the cutest thing on earth.

"What are you doing this late?" I groaned while rubbing my eyes to get them to stay awake. I stared into his eyes, they look tired definitely but they also looks worried and a little bit watery.

"What were you thinking promising Jisoo you would be coming back?" My heart skipped a bit, clearly Joshua told everyone that I was "visiting" Japan. I honestly don't know what I was thinking at that time to be honest, I fixed my eyes on the ground seeing his ragged converse stamp on the floor. I could see his hands turning into fists, I don't know. I really don't know what I was thinking at that time, I just feel like it's better for Joshua to not know I won't be coming back, at least better than him knowing that I'll be gone. I clutched the ends of my pajama shirt, I tried not to cry but it wouldn't work. I wish I didn't easily cry.

I felt my feet fail me and collapse on his body, feeling his grip on my arms trying to pull me up. I dragged my feet to stand up and wrapped my arms around his neck, feeling the little baby hairs on his neck. I bit my lip feeling a little bit of blood on my lips, I licked it away and noticing that my tears were hitting and bursting on his shirt. I flinched when I felt two warm hands on my back bringing me closer to his chest.

"Okay listen to me, once you go I'll break it down for him. Does that sound okay?" I heard him whisper into my ear while tucking a piece of my hair behind my ear. I tried to stop crying but instead found myself pulling the sleeves of my shirt and wiping them away constantly. It didn't sound okay, it just sounded like I was a cowardly girl, not to tell the one I love I'm leaving him, in front of me. If anything yeah I'm afraid to go up to him, stare at his perfectly made face, look into his eyes that make me melt and say good bye for the last time, knowing that those would be the last words I would say to him. But it should be me saying it to me, not Minghao.

"No. Don't tell him anything Minghao please." He acted surprised but he nodded his head. I told him to go home and he walked away in front of me. Once I slammed the door I walked over to the table where I ripped open the white envelope and clutched the pieces of paper in my hand that could change my life all at this moment.

1 plane ticket.

Destination : Tokyo, Japan.

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"HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA BE GONE MIN-YOUNG?"

"U-Um a week." I stuttered while exchanging looks at Minghao, he was giving me the guilty look while butting his lip trying to keep his patience trying not to say anything. He wasn't supposed to say anything first of all. And he will not say anything I really hope.

"I'LL MISS YOU!!!" Everyone screamed in the room, Joshua stood up and said it was only just a week. More like forever, I would of just said it right now that I won't be coming back but like the idiotic person I am I don't have the heart too. I looked at Joshua as he slowly sat down again while trying to not cry my heart out right in the middle of the room right now. He noticed me and squeezed my hand, please no.

I felt water stream down my face while my mouth was open sobbing loudly. I caught everyone's attention which I really wish I didn't.

"Min-Young what's wrong." I heard his voice enter my mind which was all blurry right now and I didn't know what to tell him. He squeezed my hand even tighter, I could basically see the veins coming out of his hands and neck. I could feel my hands twitching and eventually slipping out of his grip, I felt shaky and I didn't want too. My heart was pumping so fast and I couldn't end the sobs coming out of my mouth even for a small breath. Please don't make me do this. I want to stay. I want to stay with Seventeen. I want to stay with Joshua. The Joshua that I fell in love with and after everything I still fall in love with him even more every single day.

"I-I'm not c-coming b-back."

"What do you mean Min-Young."

"I'm n-not coming b-back." It slipped off my tongue so easily but it felt like I was being stabbed by a thousand swords in the heart because my body ached so much. Everywhere it cringed and it felt all broken. My eyes met Joshua's his were terrified, I realized I made a mistake once he stood up on his feet and rushed out that door slamming it at all of us.

Baka.

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When the authors makes her readers wait a billion years to update. Very sorry about that ！

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