SEVENTEEN

Chapter 36

HEY GUYS so I am very sad to say that this will be the the very soon ending chapter for the book of Seventeen, but don't y'all worry. Because I've decided to make a second book soon because this shit between jisoo and minyoung ain't fucking over just yet. So what I'm saying is that this isn't the LAST chapter but we are VERY close to the last chapter of the book. :(

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Joshua's POV (CRIES INTENSELY WHILE SPITTING OUT BLOOD)

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I fucking ran out. I paced my feet rapidly sprinting I just wanted to get the fuck out of there. I don't ever want to see her face again, I don't wanna see Min-Young's beautiful face. I don't ever want to see a single glimpse of it every time I think about her it just made me want to scream out aloud. I was going where ever my feet was taking me, which in this case was apparently down the elevator, pass the lobby and on the side walks. I'm not coming back. I'm not coming back. I'm not coming back. What the hell does she mean by that? I thought this is the part where we fucking live happily ever after. What the hell is happening to us both? We're so happy with each other at every moment but it's like in a split second a storm occurs and blows all those happy moments away.

My heart ached, and my lungs craved for just some water. I lazily put up my jacket sleeve back on again while trying to catch my breath. Why the hell did this have to happen to us? My chest raised up and down while I tried to hold my tears from all the dozens of people walking past me. My feet that had been sprinting just to get here failed me. My body crashed down sliding down the brick wall, my hands tried to cover the weird sobs that I was letting out. She's slowly letting go of our relationship and I don't want that to happen that's the last thing I would want to happen. I don't wanna live with out her, hell I don't wanna even wake up without her by my side.

Her. I don't even want to say her name because I knew it would just break me down more. Why does this have to happen to us? Why isn't she coming back? Why is she leaving me? I stared at my hands shaking and all wet from my face, I took a glimpse at everyone staring at me and I just broke down again. I lifted myself up from the ground and thought about it. She leaves on Saturday. It's Friday today. She leaves tomorrow and she decided now would be a great time to tell me that she's not coming back. I want to take it all back I wanna take myself back to the time where I bought her that plane ticket to Tokyo and I never should of bought it. I wanna go where we were cuddling on her couch in the apartment and I suggest she should go to Tokyo again.

And how could she not tell me this? That she was aching not to go because she knew she wasn't coming back, knowing that she would have to let it down "easy" for me. Stupid. You idiot Jisoo. I don't know what to do now, I don't want to go back in the house again because I'll see her again and it'll just end up as me running away from all my feelings for her. But I don't wanna stay out here where everyone can see me crying and all this stuff.

My feet dragged back into the lobby, I don't wanna go any where. I just wanna stay here.

And just sleep.

But sadly I can't do that because probably the lobby manager would kick me out and think I'm some hobo or something. But I didn't know where to go, something sparked in my mind. I brushed my hair up with my fingers again and sped walked to the exact place that I wanted to go too.

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Here it is. These steps were the first steps she took when she met us, where she met all of us. Where I met her, I hated her, I had feelings for her, I fell in love with her, I couldn't possibly think of some else so perfect for me, I can't get her off of my mind, she's broke my heart more than once, and out of all of this I still love her more than anything in the world. I pushed the door open, smelling the whiff of caffeine and tea coming from the place. And I remember how it all went, every single memory, the way she smiled, they way she would make my heart flutter but I wouldn't ever admit it.