Going Crazy (iKON Jinhwan)

Ch.6

-One Month Later-

"Ya, Bobby stop it, we get it" I yelled from the kitchen.

"Woahh!Woah!Wooooaaahhhh!" He yelled again while running upstairs.I slapped myself mentally and sighed.

"Why did i let these boys sleep here?"

"Because we are cool" Hanbin said and put few bags of food on the counter."Since we will be spending some time here, it would be nice if we bought food" He winked.I blushed, but then Dong came in and hit Hanbin is the head.

"Don't touch my sister,Hanbin" Then he came and kissed my cheek."Hey sis"

"Hey Dong" I smiled.

"Thanks for letting them live here.We are like a family now" I gave him a sad smile and nodded."I quess we are"

"We need to be happy. For them" He whispered in my ear and hugged me.I nodded and let myself be embraced by his arms.I mean, my brother gives the best hugs.

We made dinner while the rest were unpacking their stuff.

"Can you call them, Donghyuk?" He nodded and left the kitchen.I put all the food on the table and sat. They came in soon and we all started eating.

"Who taught you how to cook this good?" Bobby asked putting lots of food in his mouth.I choked and looked at Dong.He was glaring at his food, probably killing Bobby in his head.

"My mom" I said and stood up."Since you are living here now, you are cleaning the dishes at night.I'm going to bed, don't stay up for too long.Good night" I left the table, ignoring Dong who was calling me.I went upstairs and into my room.I locked the doors, changed my clothes and lied in the bed.I wasn't in a mood to talk to anyone for the last two weeks.

When i realized Jinhwan won't be coming anymore, i was happy and sad.I don't know why i was sad, i should be better because i know he is not counting my steps anymore.But,i'm not.I'm even worse.I don't have nightmares, i'm dreaming our happy days instead.It was so long ago, like a year.

"Sis, are you okay?" I heard Dong' voice.

"I am." I said shortly.I was a bit cold last few days, but i'm trying to act normal with him.He is taking care of me all the time, i can't just forget it.

"Open the-"

"Leave me alone, Donghyuk" I yelled and turned off the lights.I turned on the side and cried hard.I never yelled at him like this.I felt stupid,mean and unthankful.He is always with me, not letting me be sad or alone.While i'm being mean to him.

**

I looked at the watch.It was 10 PM.I stood up and opened my closet.I took one box and opened it.One night,when Jinhwan and i had a date,i was cold and he gave me his jacket.It was this year,i can't believe i still have it.I took a jacket and walked downstairs.All the lights were turned off, i quess everyone went to bed.I unlocked the doors and walked out.I tried to be quiet, i don't want anyone to know about this.I went to the park where i met Jinhwan on that rainy day.I sat on the bench and covered myself with his jacket.

"Where are you?" I whispered.The wind started blowing, making me cold.I hugged my knees and let my tears out.

I wanted him to come and hug me.To tell me he will stay with him.To promise he won't leave like that.What is going on with me?Is it possible that i miss him?I think that everything i did,obviosly means i want him back.

I stayed on tht bench for few hours, i didn't want to go home.I need time to think about everything.I spent 5 hours sitting on the bench.I was lucky the rain didn't fall.

I was hoping he will come and we can talk,but i ended up going back home disappointed.I walked in quietly, praying that no one noticed i was out.I locked the doors and went back in my room.I laid on my bed and fell asleep while wearing Jinhwan's jacket.

**

I woke up because someone was making a huge noise.Running, yelling, throwing things, i was so pissed off.I nervously walked out of my room, breathing deeply, because i knew i'll yell at them.

"What the fuck are you doing?" I yelled as soon as i saw them running in a living room.Everyone stopped and looked at me.

Bobby and Hanbin were chasing each other, Yunhyeong and Chanwoo throwing everything they find at each other and laugh, June listening music way too loud, while Donghyuk was simply laughing to everything he saw.

I clenched my fists because i wanted to punch them.

"Sorry, we were just having fun" Chanwoo said and put down the pillow he wanted to throw.Yunhyeong apologized and sat on the couch with a sad face that almost made me cry.I lowered my head and walked back upstairs,not saying anything more.I couldn't say anything more.

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I wanna make this clear.There might be words that are not nice.I warned you, read at your own risk.

C/V<3