Going Crazy (iKON Jinhwan)

Ch.4

Ch.4

"Kim Jinhwan" I whispered.What is this?No, it can't be him.I put the paper in my pocket and dialed Donghyuk.

"Whats up, sis?" He said cheerfully.

"Dong, i need to ask you something" I said with shaky voice.

"Ya, whats wrong?"

"Remember Jinhwan?"

"That jerk?Of course i do, why?"

"How did he look?" I forgot him.I forgot how he looks like.I forgot so many things about him.

"Last time a saw him was 4 months ago, he had a black hair.You loved his eyes a lot too.Especially the dot under his-"

I dropped my phone on the floor.

"Hye Na?You there?" I heard Dong's voice on the phone, but i couldn't answer anything,i was frozen.

I couldn't believe it.It was him.The guy i loved so much.Jinhwan, or Jinie, how i used to call him, was my first boyfriend, but few months ago he broke up with me and left me alone.But why is he stalking me?He told me he doesn't love me anymore back in school.

We accidently met one rainy day.I remember him,but of course i thought i'll never see hin again.But we saw each other on the first day of high school.Teachers always put us as partners for projects,thats how we fell in love.But we've been together only last 2 years of high school.We were still kids, how my dad used to say.But my mom loved him.He used to come to my house to help me with homeworks.Our parents got on well, but i quess i was annoying to him after so much time.I missed him, i gotta admit.

I ran back home and went to my room.I took a box under my bed and opened it.

"Hey baby.Are you doing well?I hope you are taking care of yourself.Your parents and Dong too, of course.You know i miss you right?Its so boring here, i want to be with you.Everyone keeps on asking what you are like, but i'll keep it as a secret.I promised,right?Don't forget me, two more months and then we'll see each other.This is the only way we can talk. You know i have no choice.

I love you,

KJ"

I smiled reading the letter he wrote on the summer vacation last year.He went with his parents, they took him because the school ended.We sent a lot of letters to each other.But this year, 1 month before the stalking started, he told me he doesn't love me anymore.I was broken,but i had Dong and Ayda with me.

Until 10 PM i was reading our letters, watching our old photos, reading songs he wrote for me.I cried while reading them, it all came to me.The times we spent together, classes we used to skip because we wanted to be together, only 1 fight we had, everything.I closed the box and walked into kitchen.I made myself a sandwich and sat on the couch.I turned on the TV, watching some k-drama.

I froze when someone knocked on the doors.I drank a glass of water and turned off the tv.I didn't know what to do or say, i just walked to the doors.I wasn't as scared as before, i knew who he is now.I didn't know how should i react, should i be happy or sad.I stood in front of the doors, expecting to see his face again.But, instead of Jinhwan's face, i saw Dong.

"What?Were you expecting someone?" He asked.

"W-What?O-Of course not, come in" I moved to the side so he can come in.As he walked into the living room i locked the doors.

"Whats up?What happened with you today?" He asked as he sat on the couch.

"I know who the stalker is" I said and sat next to him.

"Really?"

"Yeah.Remember Jinie?" I smiled mentioning his name.Maybe i don't feel the same way i used to, but he always made me happy no matter what.

"Its him?" His eyes widened."I never liked that guy.I knew that in the end he'll hurt you.Nothing lasts forever" I don't know why, but his words hurted me a bit.

"Its not like that." I looked down.I never let anyone say bad things about him, not even my brother.

"Why are you defending him?" He raised his voice."God knows whose boyfriend he is now,but you still somehow believe he loves you!He is not crazy, forget him already" He never yelled at me.I was a bit of scared of his tone, i bet lots of people heard us.I stared at him blankly.I stood up and ran upstairs to my room.Although my vision was blurry because of the tears, i found my room.I locked the doors and sat down, letting all the pain i felt out.The accident, Donghyuk's yelling,our break-up, everything.

"Hye Na, open the doors" He said and tried to open them."I didn't mean to yell at you, i'm sorry" I quickly stood up opened the doors and hugged him.

"Its okay" He said as he caressed my hair.

Why can't my life be normal?

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