Going Crazy (iKON Jinhwan)

Ch.24

Ch.24

I sat on the floor and laid my head on the bed.Silence filled the dark room,only the two of us in it.I let out a shaky breath as i rubbed my eyes.

"Hye Na" He called suddenly.

"I thought you were s-sleeping" I quickly wiped my tears and smiled,tho he couldn't see it.

"Why are you crying?"

"How can you know am i crying when you can't see me?"

"I can feel it"

"Go to Busan with me tomorrow night" He said softly after a short silence.

"Daehyun,i-i can't,i-"

"Think about it" He interrupted.

"I need to go" I stood up and left the room without saying a goodbye.His words made me shocked.Why did he ask me that?He knew well i have many dear people in Seoul.I walked into my house and locked the doors.

"Sis,where were you?Its late,you-"

"I'm sorry" I ran to my room without giving him a look.My privacy was being ruined,i felt trapped since Jinhwan is in my room.I didn't talk with him after that,i was hoping he would be sleeping,but i was wrong.When i came in,i saw him sitting on a bed shirtless and listening music.I closed the doors and laid in my bed,ignoring his presence.He kept listening to music,ignoring me as well.I closed my eyes and thought about Daehyun's words.One part of me wanted to go with him,but i can't leave everything here.Donghyuk is my brother and i have memories here.I should talk with him first.I stood up and ran downstairs,finding him in a kitchen.

"I need to ask you something"

"Okay" He sat on the table and stared at me.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked,because it felt like it.

"Whats happening with you?" He asked and put one bag on the table.

"What do you mean?"

"Something is not right.When i'm home,you're outside or with Daehyun.When i ask Jinhwan where are you,he doesn't know.He changed as well,which means that something happened.Did you fight again?"

"We broke up" I said shortly.

"What?When?How?Wh-"

"Long time ago"

"But-"

"Daehyun asked me to go with him in Busan" I changed the subject."He is leaving tomorrow night,he's been staying here for two months.He asked me to go with him,but i didn't answer.I wanted to ask you first"

"Do you want to go?" He asked calmly,but i could feel sadness in his tone.That made me feel even worse.

"I don't know.I can't leave you and our parents"

"I think you should go.You need a new start,maybe a new boyfriend too" He winked."I am sad about it,but you can always come back.What about Jinhwan?Did you tell him?"

I shook my head and sighed."We don't talk,its for the best.I'm going to bed now,thank you" I hugged him tight and smiled.

"Don't forget to tell me your decision tomorrow" I nodded.

"Good night" He said and went upstairs.I sat on the counter and stared at the bag.Why did Dong leave it here?Maybe he wanted me to see it.I took it and saw a box in it.In a box,there was an album of pictures and a letter.I took the album first.

"No,no,no" I stared at pictures of me and Jinhwan.Even i didn't know there's so many of them.There were pictures of us back in school,with my family,with his family,New Year,even me sleeping!I laughed as few tears fell from my eyes.Jinhwan did this for sure.But why did he do it?We broke up because of him,because he cheated on me.There was one picture that caught my eyes.It was taken few months ago,in their practice room.Everyone was there,Jinhwan and i in the middle hugging while others did the V sign.But there was someone behind the doors.I knew it was a girl because of a skirt she was wearing.I looked a bit closer and realized its that girl.The one who is everywhere,the one who took Jinhwan away from me.Its weird that i still don't know her name.I got mad,he put it on purpose.I threw the album,not caring where.

"Ouch" Bobby came in while rubbing his forehead."What did i do to deserve that?"

"Sorry" I laughed.This guy is everywhere too.I would miss him as well,he made me feel better so many times.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" He asked happily.

"Why are you so happy?"

"I'm going on a date" He winked."See you!"

He walked out with a smile.I was happy for him,but sad that i might leave.I looked at the bag once again.I took the letter and read it out loud.

Dear Hye Na,

This is the only way to talk to you.Did you see the album?I hope you liked it,there's lots of our pictures.I have the same one,you know.There's so many things i wanna tell you.I'm sorry for that scene.You shouldn't have seen that.I was drunk,i didn't think straight.Few words won't make you forgive me,but i'll do my best to be with you.You didn't mean to break-up with me,right?I know you love me,you care about me,just like i care about you.I didn't want to hurt you,i don't want to see you cry because of me.We're together for a long time,i won't let it end like this.Remember my words,this is not an end.

I wanted to buy you a gift,but you wouldn't accept it.I wanted to talk with you,but you're avoiding me.Or you are with Daehyun.I admit,i am jealous.I won't let him take you away.Baby,you are mine.

I hope that,after you read this,you will come to me and talk with me again.I hope that you will give me another chance.If you don't,just know that i love you more than anyone else in this world.

Jinhwan

I put my hand over my mouth to hold the sobs.Why is he doing all this?I don't want to be anything to him anymore,he hurts me everytime.But he makes me come back to his arms.Not this time,i'm letting go of him and his fake love.I walked to my room and saw him sleeping.I changed my clothes and laid in a bed.

After this night,everything will be over.

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C/V<3