Wake Up Call (English) #Wattys2016

Sooo...

Marshall walked out on the balcony and looked down on the ladder on the ground, he turned around and rolled his eyes.

"Really... Well, that the hell are WE gonna do then?? And how THE HELL am I get out without your mom noticing?" He said with a little pissed off tone, but gave me a quick wink with a little smile at the end so that I wouldn't bother about it and get sad.

"Well... She just got home from an exhausting trip, she'll probably go to sleep any time soon..." I said and sat down in the bed slowly.

Didn't he like my company? Didn't he like being in the same room as me for a longer period of time? What the hell??

"...I'm sorry... Can I please stay here for the night? Again?" He laughed, I nodded without meeting his gaze.

"Or... You could just do as you always do when you're leaving... Go over the railing and on the roof and jump on the car..." I said as if I didn't care. But I did.

I didn't want him to leave, I wanted him to stay! Here, with me, all alone in my room..

I looked up at the ceiling in total shock when I understood it. I was in love with him. I was in love with Marshall!! My best friend since childhood!

Marshall let out a small sigh and was a little nervous when I looked up at him.

"I... You know I didn't mean it that way, Alex..." He said, then I met his gaze. And I was frustrated!

"Do I?! For fuck sake Marshall!! If you wanna go then GO! I DON'T CARE!" I screamed out and felt the tears pushing while I was talking. He just looked at me thoughtfully and let me finish. "YOU KNOW HOW AND YOU WHERE YOU CANN LEAVE!! IF IT IS SO DIFFICULTOR HARD TO BE IN THE SAME ROOM AS ME ALONE, THEN GO!" I yelled out, but quickly toned it down when I remembered that mom was downstairs.

I felt the tears starting to fall down my cheeks, but wiped them away fast with my palm so that he wouldn't see it, but of course he did.

"Why are you..." He started and tried to give me a comforting hug, but I pushed him away. I pushed him that hard that he fell backwards down in the bed, I was his sweater had creeped a little up his stomach, revealing a well-toned abdomen. I started to stare, but quickly glanced away so he wouldn't notice. "WOW! WOW! Fine, I'll leave then... Jeez..." He got up from the bed, I turned my back at him. It probably looked like I didn't care, but I just didn't want to see him leave...

I heard the door opened and turned around quickly when I felt the guilt rise inside of my stomach.

"Marshall!!! I helplessly exclaimed, he turned towards me and this time I let him see the now soaking wet face I now had. "Please, don't..." And for the first time, I admitted both for myself and Marshall something I'd never think I'd say to anyone. "I need you.." I said and Marshall looked at me with a  compassionate expression before walking up to me with open arms, pulling me against him in a hug.

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He was lying in my bed and I was lying with my head on his chest while he was twirling my black hair through his fingers. I had never felt like this before, so...so girly? Yeah, we are just bestfriends, it wasn't anything between us. I thought a "yet" for myself with a smile, even though I knew that it could only be in my imagination...

"You know... I've never seen this side of you..." He whispered, I looked up and met his blue eyes.

"What side?" I asked, even though I knew what he meant, I just wanted him to say it.

GOD! H'e's got a girlfriend! STOP IT!! He CAN'T be yours!! 

He smiled before he answered.

"Your soft side. I've always thought of you as one of the guys, y'know... You're always like: Fuck you, you stupid little motherfucker! Go fuck yourself! What's up, whiteboy! You douche! Yo! My homie! and my personal favorite: Yo, stupid ass motherfucking douche! Yeah you! GO FUCK YOURSELF! And as your best friend, I know that it means, in your own language: I love you."

I smiled up at him and let out a little chuckle.

"You have your own language too, whiteboy." I said smiling, he met my gaze.

"Oh yeah? What's that?" He asked exited, I winked at him.

"'Fuck you' can mean two things with you: eiter 'I love you' or 'Fuck you!' And same with the middle-finger. You're basically just like me, you're just more guy than I am!" I said and chuckled, he raised one of his eyebrows.

"Or am I??" He asked, I laughed and sat up straight.

"I don't have a dick, or balls. But I am nuts!" Marshall burst out laughing, that was such a dry joke! Oh mu god!!

"Alex, you got some HUGE balls down there, you just can't see em' cause you're a girl!" He laughed and gave me a thumbs up,

"Wooo, now I can start bragging about  ma balls!" I laughed and both of us burst out laughing again.

Holy fuck! I love being with Marshall late at night and just the two of us!!