Wake Up Call (English) #Wattys2016

Fuck.

I stared into the wall with big eyes as I held the phone to my ear.

"This is Detroit Main, Dr. Kane speaking?" A male voice answers at the other end, I coughed briefly and tried to keep myself together.

"H-hi ..." I coughed. "Hi, this is Alexis Cubard. I want to have a check up ..." I muttered and heard he was writing something down in the background.

"Okay, Ms. Cubard. Is there anything in the particular you would like to check?" I bit my lower lip as I looked at the picture of Marshall with Hailie on my nightstand.

"I ... I think ... I want to check if I'm pregnant ..." I said and coughed briefly, he wrote down something more.

"Okay, you can come to the clinic tomorrow at 3pm. Is that an okay time?" I sighed short, that's when I was going to visit Marshall ... But, the faster I know if I'm pregnant or not, the better ...

"Yeah, that's fine." I just said and hung up when we had talked a bit about what I should do and what I shouldn't do until tomorrow, in case I'm pregnant.

I looked over at my phone with a thoughtful look, can I call him? I have already been visiting him today, that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to call him up right..? Ah, fuck it ...

I picked up my phone again and called up the rehabilitation center, I bit my bottom lip and looked into the wall, my thoughts went everywhere. What if I'm actually pregnant? A... An actual HUMAN is actually growing inside me ?! Oh my God ... What's Marshall gonna say ?!

"Lincoln Rehabilitation Center, this is Catherine?" I jumped out of my thoughts.

"Yes, hi! This Alexis Cubard, can I speak to Marshall Mathers?" I said, there was silence in the other end for a few seconds before his voice rang out through the phone.

"ALEX, I'M GOING NUTS !! THESE FUCKING WALLS ARE TALKING TO ME, I SWEAR !!" He shouted into the phone while he breathing heavily.

"You know there are other people there right?" I laughed briefly.

"OH, HA-HA! You're so funny! I swear to God, there's someone telling me to take fucking pills! I'M GOING CRAZY IN HERE! GET ME OUT OF THIS SHITHOLE!" I sighed.

"Marshall, it's okay ... You hear voices ??" I bit my lower lip, poor guy...

"Alex, just give me a little. JUST ONE." He sounded desperate and he has only been there for a few hours!

"Calm Down !! You can do this, fight the urges by writing something!"

"THE THINGS I WRITE MAKE ME THINK OF IT EVEN MORE !!"

"What do you write about then ..."

"OH! Ponies and fairies!" I rolled my eyes at his sarcasm. "I'm writing about pills and shit! Ganja, I swear, I can smell it in the air! Someone got it ... I gotta fucking find it!" I heard he walked around the room and pulled the door handle. "FUCK. THEY'VE LOCKED ME UP IN THIS FUCKING ROOM!"

"Calm down on your swearing, Jesus Christ ..."

"FUCK. YOU. You don't know how I fucking feel! I'M STARVING, BUT I JUST ATE! I'M STARVING FOR PILLS !! OR A BLUNT! OR A FUCKING BOTTLE OF VODKA !! JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING !!" I shook my head.

"Marshall. Breath. Calm down ... You're stronger than this ..." I said quietly. Damn, if he's gonna react like this when I say I'm pregnant, I'm not gonna be able to go through with it. I would be scared shitless ... If I am, obviously. He took a deep breath and sighed to himself.

"I need you here ... You are the only one that can fucking calm me down ..." I got a sad expression on my face. "I'm so looking forward till seeing you tomorrow ...." I swallowed hard, I can't say I'm going to check if I'm pregnant and that it is why I won't come tomorrow !! He's going to be ... Angry... My God, he's going to be damn mad at me !!! What shall I say?!