Wake Up Call (English) #Wattys2016

No Apologies

I pulled her against me as soon as I opened the door and got tears in my eyes when she put her arms around me.

"Gosh, I'm so sorry ... I thought you really were doing good ..." Stacy said in the hug, I nodded. Brian appeared behind her, I looked at him surprised.

"We were, but y'know ... What are you doing here, Brian?" I asked and pulled him tiwards me in a hug. He smiled at me briefly.

"You know, I heard about this with you breaking up with ---"

"It was mutual ..." I said quickly, he nodded.

"Yes, yes, of course. I'm just here to say that I'm here for you." He said, smiling at me reassuringly.

"Thank you ..." I smiled and patted him on the shoulder, I invited them in, everyone stopped when he came down the stairs. We all looked at Marshall as he came walking into the room, he stopped and faced our glances. He picked up a smoke from his back pocket and lit it, took a puff and pointed at Stacy and Brian.

"What're y'all doing here?" He asked, he glimpsed Brian briefly before he looked over at Stacy.

"Mental support." She said, true ... Marshall took another drag.

"You look hot, Stacy." He said, pointing at her, wait what !? "I'm going down at the studio, see ya ..."

"Wait, wait??" I exclaimed quickly, he met my gaze. "And don't smoke inside the house ??"

"It's my house, ain't it?" He said harsh, what the hell is going on ?? "I'll be down at the studio." He gave me his cigarette and walked downstairs.

"... What just happen ??" I asked Stacy and looked down at the smoke in my hand. She raised her shoulders towards me.

"I have no idea, has he always acted like this ??" I looked at her dumbfounded. Brian chuckled behind her and sat down on the couch.

"If he had, I wouldn't be asking that, stupid." I said, rolling my eyes, I took her hand in mine and looked into her eyes. "He wasn't like that this morning!" I said acidic and dropped her hands, I walked over to the couch and fell down beside Brian, he put his arm around me supportive. Stacy sat down beside me and put her hand on my shoulder. "God, I can't live without him!!"

"People change ... You know Marshall, he can change his emotions and behavior just like that ..." She said and stroked my back comforting.

"Yeah, but he never does it towards me ..."

"Maybe it was because I was here..?" Said Brian quietly, I met his gaze.

"Maybe ... Or maybe he's just ... Sad, about this whole thing ..." I said and took Stacy's hand in mine. "Maybe he thought this whole thing was a stupid idea!"

"Alex, I don't think we should ..." Stacy said behind me as we walked down the stairs, I opened the door to the studio with a big smile, but the smile was quickly turned on its head.

Kim.

And him.

Kissing.

I couldn't say anything, I just stood there and looked at him. He didn't let go of the kiss, even though I knew he knew I was there.

"Marshall ??" Stacy exclaimed, he still didn't let go of the kiss, Kim did however and looked at me.

"What? You still together or something?" She asked, I got big eyes.

"No, but they broke up today ?? Don't you think it's kinda recent to be all over each other a couple hours later ?!" Marshall looked into my eyes, he had no feelings in those cold blue eyes of his and he looked straight into me. He got a small smile on his face, bastard ...

"What the hell are you doing!?!?" I yelled.

"Uuuuuh, kissing Kim ?? The fuck does it look like woman ..." he said and laughed shortly before he sat down at the mixing table. "Yo, Alex. Check out this new hook I made, I think it fits pretty good with us right now ..."

'Expect no sympathy from me, I'm an MC, this is how I'm supposed to be. Cold as a G, my heart's frozen it don't even beat, so expect no apologies ...'

He looked at me expectantly and crossed his arms over his chest.

"How the fuck could you?" I said sobbing and looked at him with tearful eyes. "I thought I meant something to you! Apperantly I don't, cause you get over me just like that! WELL FUCK YOU!" I screamed, I felt hands on my shoulders and turned my head halfway to see who it was, it was Brian "... At least I got you guys ..." I turned back to Marshall. "At least I got some real friends! You were always there for me, and I was always there for you ... How the fuck could you just let me down like this !!!"

He stared at me quietly, Kim looked from both of us and rolled her eyes.

"I though't y'all were done. I refuse to be someone you just go to here an there!" She said and slapped him, I got big eyes.

"DON'T HIT HIM !!!" I screamed, she met my gaze.

"After all he's done to you !?" She said.

"YOU DON'T HIT HIM !!" I cried. "Violence is never the answer !!" I stared at her hard, with tears running down from my eyes. "I hate him for doing this, to both of us ... But you don't hit him." Kim shook her head at me and walked past us out the door.

_____ Marshall's POV____

She met my gaze, my chest pains to pretend I don't care about her ... But it was what she wanted ... So it would be easier for her, I'd do anything for her, even if she's going to hate me for it...

"You okay?" She asked sobbing..

God, I wish I could hold you, that I could kiss you and give you the world so you wouldn't feel this way ... Knowing I'm the reason you're feeling this way ...

"Whatever ..." I said and sat down at the mixingtable.

"WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU !?" Brian exclaimed, I turned around and met his gaze. "SHE'S RIGHT HERE! FOR YOU! Son of a bitch, why can't you see how much you mean to her?!"

"Well shit, the New Yorker got some balls after all ..." I said.

"Don't make this into a fucking joke, you're an asshole. Alex was one of the best things in my life, and if she was one of the best things in my life, she damn sure was in yours!" He said, take it easy ... She takes you back... It hurts, but she will...

"I don't need a woman in my life right now--"

"Then what the fuck are you doing !? I thought you were good for her and that she was happy with you, but damn how wrong I was." He said pissed, I got up from the chair. "You're pathetic. You're just like what the media says, a rapper fucking every woman he get's his hands on." Alex turned to Brian with big eyes.

"You sure got some nerve saying that to me face to face, little bitch." I said harsh and looked at him with a murderous glance.

"At least I have friends backing me up on what I say." He said.

"Brian!" Alex exclaimed and looked at me with big eyes.

"Get the fuck out." I said hard, Alex pushed them out and met my gaze.

"I hope you're fucking happy." She said hard.

"As happy as I can ever be if I can record the rest of this song ..." I looked up at her when she didn't say anything back in a while, and the look she gave me crushed me inside.

"I fucking hate you." She said and slammed the door. I turned towards the booth and looked down at the paper in my hands.

Good, that means it will be easier ...

I felt tears running down my cheeks at the thought of what Brian said ...

I may be the hardcore rapper, the dude nobody fucks with and not care what anybody thinks about me ... But her telling me she fucking hates me, was like being killed a million times ...