Cam
I walked into the living room of my small one bedroom apartment that I shared with my best friend and boyfriend Ashton in his American Apparel underwear. He was currently on tour in the UK with his band 5 Seconds Of Summer.
He had been gone for a month and a half wouldnt be back for another couple weeks. The distance isnt easy for me but counting down the days knowing he's doing what he loves with people he loves puts me at ease.
Ashton wasnt taking the distance too well either. All he wanted was to be beside her. It killed him knowing that as he performed for a different city every night she was sleeping alone.
We get lectured on the concept of long distance all the time but think nothing of it. I knew what I was getting into when my best friend/teenage rockstar best friend asked me out 6 months prior.
I picked up a frame of Ashton and I on his 19th birthday. I smiled as I thought back to that day. They went to the zoo and Ashton was feeding a goat named Brennan when a duck came out of no where and chased him till he tripped on a rock and fell. The duck only left him alone because his high pitched girl like scream scared it away.
He didnt scream because he tripped on the rock either.
I smiled and put the frame down as feelings punched me in the stomach and I started to miss him. A lot. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and dialed his number. It rang and rang until his voicemail beeped.
"Hey." I started. "Its me. I miss you. I cant wait to see you in a few weeks. Youre probably rehearsing or fucking shit up with the guys but call me." I sighed. I love you. I thought as I said good bye to the answering machine and hung up.
As I turned off my phone, Voodoo my Austrailien shepherd came trotting in.
He whimpered and sat infront of me. "Do you miss Ash too?" I asked as I pet him. Voodoo was a pound dog who had 12 hours to live before they youthonized him. I had given into Ashtons pleads and puppy dog eyes and Voodoo became the most loved member of our little family.
As I started to play with Voodoo, my phone buzzed. I pulled it out of my pocket and saw that Calum had snapchatted me. When I opened it, it was a picture of him and Ashton captioned #Cashton.
I laughed because Calum was the only one who didnt support Ashmille as much as the rest of the band. (Yeah Ashmille is a thing) He had a thing for Ashton and everyone could see it.
Calum isnt very good at hiding his feelings.
I shut my phone off and went upstairs to grab Ashtons Sweatshirt.
It was black and smelled like him. It comforted me when he was gone. I put it on and hugged myself. His 6' self required large and extra large shirts and sweatshirts which swallowed Cam's 5'2 frame but thats the way she liked it.
I walked back downstairs, spread out on the couch and turned on the TV. As I was about to change the channel, my phone buzzed. I pulled it out and saw it was a text from my ex Justin.
Fuck face: i miss u:(
I ignored it and put my phone back in my pocket. It kept buzzing.
Fuck face: come on cam
Fuck face: im sorry
Fuck face: talk to me please???
Fuck face: quite hiding and talk to me
Fuck face: Remember i Know where you live
Fuck face: you cant forget what we had
Fuck face: he'll never be me. Youll come back around
When it finally stopped I blocked his number for the 5th time that month. Cam caught Justin cheating a year ago with some girl in Ohio and she was crushed.
We had been together for two years and it was all going great. Well I thought at least. He still hasnt fully confessed to it and even though my good friend Brian says theyre nothing and I had nothing to worry about, 1 black lipstick stained picture and 6 romantic tweets later and I wasnt so sure.
My phone buzzed again and I hesitated looking at it incase it was fuck face. I gave in and saw it was from Ashton.
Ash<3: just got your message:) i miss you
You: i miss you too
Ash<3: couple more days!! Hang in there.
You: more like couple more WEEKS and it feels like years:/
Ash<3: i know:( how are you?
You: lonley
Ash<3: that makes two of us
Right as I was about to tell him
about Justin, Ashton said he needed to go. I said my good byes and he said his. I figured I'd tell him later.
Or not at all.
