Mute. L-H

Confused.

After Michael helped to clean up he went home. Well Luke told him too. Even though it's true, Luke's suspicious that Michael hit me. My nose is swollen but not too bad.

Me and Luke are currently laying on the sofa watching how I met your mother.

"Are you ok" Luke tapped me. I nodded against his chest I couldn't be bothered to get my phone.

"Know it's early but I just want to say that, you are literally the best thing that's happened to me, and I never wanna lose you ok" he looked down at me

"I love you taissa" he looked at me.

I was shocked. Luke loved me. Of corse I wanted to say it back but one I don't talk and two. I don't know if I do.

Those words didn't give me sparks like there supposed to, Luke's kissed don't explode on my skin like they used to but I still feel like I love him.

But after Michael kissed me I've been questioning myself if I do, I want to I want to so bad he's suck a good boyfriend. I couldn't ask for anything better..

"Do you love me?" Luke looked at me. I was scared for my own answer. I nodded my head slowly and he smiled backer placing his lips on mine.

The kiss was slow and passionate sweet like always. His lip ring cold against my lip. We pulled away and he smiled again.

"Are you ever going to tell me what happened when Michael was here?" Luke asked me.

I can't exactly tell him the truth, that Michael kissed me and then flipped out because I chose Luke.

"I take that as a no" Luke said agin pulling me out my thoughts. I sighed a bit annoyed at his grouchiness.

But then again he does have anger problems so He couldn't help it. I
kissed his jaw to re assure him.

*two weeks later*

Me and Luke are still going strong, when the doctors and that aren't around. They don't like us together. Nor does Michael.

No one else can see it but I can. He's always roll his eyes everything luke would say something nice to me.

Of corse I still didn't talk. I laugh now. Sometimes. That's a good thing apparently but I feel like I'm loosing who I was.

Right now we were all having our lunch. Sitting as normal. Me and Luke sitting next to each other. Michael and Calum next to each other and Ashton likes to move his chair to the foot of the table.

I still didn't understand why he was in here. Way to happy to be in here.

"I talk to my therapist right, and they might be bringing in instruments, like for us, I told her about the band idea" he smiled widely at the boys.

"I don't think I wanna do that anymore" Michael said glaring at like for a second.

I looked to him the same time he looked to me. He quickly looked away again.

"Why not mikey!" Ashton said way to excited about the subject.

"I just- I don't know!" He snapped getting up and walking out.

Lately his anger attacks have been getting worse. If it carrys on he'll be put in max.

You can't do anything but sit in your room in there. At least out here we have some sort of freedom. Of corse there were Cameras everywhere. But that didn't bother me.

We all looked at each other in silence after Michaels outburst.

"I'm going to see if he's ok" Calum said getting up and taking his and Michaels tray to the bin and waking out.

If they weren't straight I'm pretty sure they'd be a couple by now.

"Well that was exciting" Ashton said. He was way to happy today. It just made me feel worse.

Michaels POV
It's been like two weeks and I'm getting sick of seeing Luke all over taissa. I loved her. He didn't. I did though.

I couldn't stand it at lunch. I didn't want to be in a band with him! I'll do it with anyone else but him.

I had to leave I couldn't stay there when Ashton asked me why. I had to leave before I blurted everything out.

"Michael?" Calum's voice came through. The apartment room thing whatever they call these boxes.

"What!" I snapped at him. He walked into my bedroom and looked at me. "Don't just stare at me what do you want!" I shouted getting worked up.

Breathing. In. Out. Repeat. That's what the therapist said.

"What's gotten into you lately" he sighed sitting next to me on my bed.

"Nothing, I'm fine" I said mostly trying to reassure myself.

"No your not your going back to how you used to be when you first got in here!" He said sounding like he was giving up on me.

"I can't handle them together. It's all I fucking see! Just them together! Kissing, he says i love you to her" I said laying down on my bed.

"There's nothing we can do Michael, I don't know what you want me to do or say" he sighed.

"Break them up" I said sitting up and looking at him.

"I can't do that" he said. "That's wrong and bad" he said.

"Come on Calum, where's the fun in being good" I smiled at him. I knew exactly how his mind worked. I know I shouldn't but he's so easy for me to manipulate.

"Michael I said I wouldn't do bad things in here" he sighed. Many times before we both got locked up we'd do things together.

Him being the brains and I'm the muscle. He's a smart guy really no one understands him though. I do. To me he's not crazy Calum as everyone at school would call him. He's just Calum to me.

"Yeah but remember how fun it was?" I smirked. He always told me how fun it was.

"Yeah" he smiled.

"Well then why don't we play a game" I shrugged.

"I love games" he smiled at me. I love the fact he was himself around me. When other people are about he is someone completely different.

A strong boy who's normal but then we're alone and he turns into the Calum I know. The one that's weird. Talks like a child. That's what I liked about him. He's not like other kids my age.

He doesn't understand most things, I'll have to secretly whisper it into his ear so he can join in. He also isn't aware of other people's feelings. Or his own.

"So wanna play?" I smiled.

"Yes i do!" He smiled back. Now time to get to work.