Mute. L-H

Blame.

Michaels POV
Taissa left again last night and went home. I wish she'd stay.

I never wanted Luke to be gone, just maybe locked away for a few days. But there's nothing I can do now. I just have to make Taissa happy.

"What's happened to Luke?" Calum asked me picking up some pasta on his fork.

"He's gone home" I said looking at him.

"Oh that's nice for him" Calum smiled to himself.

"Sure it is" I shrugged.

"Hey guys!" Ashton said as he sat down with us.

"Hi!" Calum said back returning the cheeriness. There always so happy it drives me insane.

"Michael?" He nudged my arm.

"Hello" I sighed.

"What's up with grumpy?" Ashton giggled looking to Calum.

"Luke went home" he replied.

"That's not the reason Calum" I frowned at him. He slumped down in his chair.

"What is it then?" Ashton asked me.

"It's none of your fucking business!" I shouted standing up. I really need to control myself more.

"Just fuck off for a while yeah?" I looked at them before walking out.

I decided to go find Taissa, she's probably upset right now.

I knocked on the door to her room and waited patiently outside. There was no answer. I sighed and went to walk away but I heard something fall from inside.

I forcefully pushed the door and got it open.

My jaw dropped as I saw her. Hanging from the ceiling a chair fallen beneath her.

"Fuck! No" I shouted I ran over and picked up the chair placing her feet I on it again and standing on it myself to untie the bedsheets she had used.

I managed to get them untied and got her down.

I sat on the floor with her limp body laying in my arms. My fingers pressed to her neck hoping for a pulse.

I found it and sighed in relief, she was alive. I laid her on the floor and went to the kitchens and grabbed a glass of cold water.

I picked her up and laid her down on t the sofa instead of the floor and dripped the water over her face to wake her up.

I slowly let more fall on her face every time getting better impatient. She gasped for air and sat up straight on the bed and looked at me frowning.

"Don't you ever do that again" I frowned back at her. "What if I wasn't here?" I said even tho I knew I wouldn't get an answer.

She just looked at me scared and upset. She started crying hysterically I jumped up and hugged her just held her against me and let her cry.

This was my fault, I took Luke away from her. I was selfish and now she's trying to kill herself. I didn't mean for him to go away.

Taissa's POV
I finally thought I succeeded in kilo img myself but I soon found myself gasping for air when a splash of freezing water came over my face.

I looked around to see Michael next to me I frowned why was he even here.

"Don't you ever do that again!" He frowned at me. He scared me a little but I tried to keep an angry face on.
"What if I wasn't here?" He questioned me.

Tears sprung to my eyes and j broke down. I just cried and cried while Michael hugged me.

I didn't really want to die. I just wanted to be out of here, I just wanted to leav wether it was in a body bag or not.

"This is all my fault" Michael mumbled stroking my arm. I pulled away and looked at him shaking my head.

"Don't try and defend me it is, but I never meant this to happen, I didn't want Luke to get into trouble and I defiantly didn't want him to be sent back" he kept on going. I couldn't even stop him my phone was left in my room.

I shook my head at him again. I wanted him to stop blaming himself. If Luke didn't touch him he would still be here.

"Taissa it is my fa-" I cut him off my placing my hand over his mouth. I shook my head again frowning.

I moved my hand and he just sat in silence looking at me. I laid my head back down on his chest just above the wet patch I just created with my tears.

His arms instinctively went around my again and he gently rubbed my arm. We stayed like that until it got to late and Michael had to leave. He didn't want to leave me alone but I promised him I wouldn't do anything and that's a promise I'm going to keep.

I laid down in my bed and sighed. I better be leaving soon, I need to see Luke again. My eyelids felt heavy from crying and soon they were closed and I fell into a deep dream.

"Luke?" I called out, I was talking on the phone "Luke please answer me?" I said again. I don't talk but I can't stop myself.

"Taissa I can't do this anymore" his voice spoke through the phone.

"Luke please, I love you" I said back tears in my eyes.

"I can't, I've met someone else, how do you expect me to wait, it's been a year" he said to me. A year? It's been about two days?

"Please don't do this to me?" I said desperately. Who was the someone else.

"I'm sorry, I just don't love you" he said with no emotion.

"You can't fucking do this Luke, I'm talking for you, I'm fucking talking for you, don't you care anymore?" I raised my voice getting angry.

"Honestly no, I don't, I have to go" he said. He didn't care about me.

"Luke, don't go, you don't have to do this. I'll be out in two weeks!" I cried harder.

"Two weeks is too long, bye" he said and then the line went flat. I threw my phone across the room  and cried. I just cried again and again it wasn't stopping

I shot up in bed and looked around. I was still in my bed me cheeks were wet because of the dream. Thank god it was only a dream.