Mute. L-H

Alone.

I woke up on the bathroom floor again, it didn't work, it never does. Why do I keep waking up, I need to buy stronger pills for next time.

The familia feeling erupted in my stomach making me lunge towards the toilet.

After I finished puking up the bad chemicals from the pills I stood up slowly. I opened the cupboard and grabbed my toothbrush.

I walked through my empty house to the front room picking my phone up from the side.

1 new message

I sighed opening it up.

Therapist
I had to cancel tomorrow's appointment, I hope you don't mind.

I closed it again throwing my phone to the side of me. I was happy not having therapy and all but it distracted me from my thoughts.

Once again my aunt was out, I lived with her, I have to, after the "accident" she's never in. she doesn't care about me.

I never see her, she just leaves some money every now and then to keep me going.

I walked to my room to get dressed. I opened my wardrobe and grabbed my black skinny jeans and a plain black top with my black jumper. I slipped on my black converse.

I grabbed my phone and keys and the last of the money and walked out of the house.

I walked down to the shop and opened the door. I slowly walked in, I don't go out much only to my therapy.

The hum of the fridges echoed through the isles. the shop was empty, I didn't even know the time, all I knew was it was late.

I didn't even realise I woke up at night until now. I don't notice much. I pulled out my phone to check.

12:22am

No wonder no one was here, I wondered the isles looking for hair products.

I decided on dying my hair black, I didn't like blonde, reminded me of how I once was, what happened.

I shook my head getting the memory out. I finally found what I was looking for and picked up a box.

I walked to the counter were a boy sat in a chair. he had earphones in. His blond hair styled in a quiff. his bright blue eyes focused on his phone. His teeth pulled at the ring on his lip.

He looked up to me slowly pulling out his earphones. he stood up. he must have been at least 6ft.

"Sorry" he mumbled.

I put the box on the side and pushed it to him. he picked it up and scanned it. the beep echoed through the isles of the silent shop.

"5 pounds 75" he looked up to me.

I pulled the crumpled up ten pound note out of my pocket and handed it to him.

He pressed a few buttons on the register and put the money in giving me my change back.

I turned around and left.

I finally got back to my house and decided in dying my hair straight away.

I mixed the bottles together and shook the substance with many chemicals

I wonder if this could kill me?

I thought to my self i walked to the bathroom and put on the plastic gloves squeezing the black liquid onto my hands before rubbing it into my hair

After I had waited I rinsed it out, the water turning black as I did. I grabbed the dodgy hair dryer an dried my hair.

I stood once again looking at myself in the mirror, I looked like a different girl, I liked it this way.