Mute. L-H

Gay.

Michaels POV
Taissa wanted to be alone today. Which is fair I mean she did just tell me the reason she don't talk.

Then there's me with my pathetic reasons for being here and hers is massive. I just get a little angry.

Calum was coming here as usual and we'll probably lay around playing Fifa.

There was a knock on my door and I jumped up opening it to a smiling Calum.

"Hey!" He smiled at me.

"Hi" I smiled back letting him in.

"What are we going to do today?" He said sitting down on the sofa.

"Fifa?" I asked him.

"Ok" he said walking off to my room. I watched him before following after.

We sat down on the beanbags and I turned on the Xbox. Even though Calum was really shit I still played with him.

When I say shit I mean he normally just ran around in circles giggling because 'the man looks funny'

"I'm bored" he stated putting down the control.

"Well what do you want to do?" I sighed leaning back.

"Can you play your guitar, I like it when you do" he smiled at me. I smiled back getting up and grabbing the guitar and sat back down next to him.

"Ok what song?" I asked him. He frowned as he was thinking.

"All about you" he smiled at me. I nodded and started to play.

As I did Calum started singing along. I couldn't help but smile. He closed his eyes as he sung and he had a slight lisp making it cuter than it was.

He finally finished and opened his eyes looking at me his cheeks turning a crimson color.

"That sounded good!" I said to him.

"You really think so?" He smiled.

"Yes it was amazing" I smiled putting my guitar down beside me.

He blushed again before leaving over and hugging me. He nuzzled his face into my neck as he did. I knew he was embarrassed.

"I promise it sounds good" I said re assuring him.

"Thank you" he mumbled pulling away slightly. Our faces were close again. It always come to this

I couldn't help but to look to his lips before quickly looking back to his eyes. Before I could react Calum's lips were on mine.

I kissed back slightly before getting a weird tingling feeling making me realise what was going on. I quickly pushed him away and jumped up.

He looked up to me from the floor.

"You need to stop kissing me!" I shouted getting agitated.

"But I ju-"

"You can't just do that, I'm- im not gay" I said whispering the last part.

"I'm sorry" he said looking away from me. I hated this. He's kiss me and then I'll get that stupid feeling and push him away and then he'll be upset then i feel bad.

"Don't be upset" I sighed. He didn't say anything he just kept his eyes on his hands.

"You kissed back" he looked up to me.

"No I didn't" I defended myself.

"You do it all the time, I'll kiss you you'll start to kiss back and then you push me away, I'm so confused what do you want" he looked to me tears in his eyes

"I don't know" I said truthfully. I didn't know. I sat down next to him. "I like girls" I frowned. "I'm not gay" I said mostly to myself.

"You know, you could be bi?" He looked at me. I'm a what?

"What?" I frowned at him.

"You could like both" he shrugged. I looked to him.

"Can I um, can I kiss you again?" I asked cautiously. Maybe I do like him, I never really give it a chance because I'm to scared He nodded and leaned forward slightly.

I looked to his lips before closing my eyes and pressing mine against his. This time I kissed back instead of pushing him away.

Once against that feeling came back. The tingly one that was like a thousand sparks all over my body. My tummy doing weird things.

I pulled away and frowned.

"Is it meant to do that?" I asked him.

"Do what?" He asked.

"I don't knew I go all tingly and it feels like butterflies in my stomach" I looked to him.

A smile spread across his face.

"Why are you smiling" I frowned at him.

"You like me" he smiled. I just frowned at him.

"That's the feeling you get when you like someone Michael you like me" he smiled.

"I-I do?" I frowned at him.

"It's ok to feel that way" he said pulling me into a hug. "I know it's confusing, but it's ok" he said the exact thing I said to him when he told me.

"You know, I think I have always liked you" I said thinking about it.

"How?" He questioned getting more comfy able on the beanbag but keeping me in his arms.

"I don't know, I've always cared about you, you are the only person that can calm me down, I knew I always had feelings towards you but I never thought it was in this way" I explained to him.

It kinda all came together to me. I mean I've always cared about him a hell of a lot. Most of the time I can't help but stare because he's mesmerising. The reason I couldn't look away is because I liked him this whole time. But Taissa. I still like her a lot.

"Taissa" I mumbled.

"What?" Calum asked.

"What if I still like Taissa?" I asked mostly to myself.

"Then your just greedy" Calum jokes.

"I'm serious cal" I said moving so I could see his face.

"Would you choose her over me?" He frowned. I didn't say anything because I didn't know.

I mean I went through a beating for her but then again if she made me choose I'd defiantly choose Calum. Bros over hoes. But this is different it's like I have a choice to be gay or not.

"No" I finally answered. Calum smiled that sweet smile and me and kissed my head. What was this now. Am I gay? Are me and Calum a thing?

I ask myself to many questions.