Help! (a joe sugg fanfiction)

Chapter 15

Tanya went back to her room to get dressed for the meet ups today. I was allowed back stage so I helped with coffees and stuff. I didn't mind doing that to be honest. I got dressed into my yellow top and denim dress with white plimsols and sunglasses. I tied my hair up amd squirted my favourite perfume on me 'Marc Jacobs Daisy Dream'.

"Give us a twirl" Niomi asked. I blushed a little and did a fancy twirl. We all laughed and made our way down to breakfast.

I sat across from Joe and sat next to Caspar and Niomi. Caspar was constantly trying to flirt with me but I just shook it off.

"Just accept the compliments, he's just trying to get to know you" Niomi whispered to me.
"I don't think flirting counts as getting to know me" I said under my breath while Caspar was occupied eating his pancakes.

Over that meal I got most of the youtubers asking how I was and if I was ok. To be honest I was getting a bit tired of them acting as if I was a baby. I mean I know I'm only 16 and most of them are in their 20's but it hurts me a bit.

So we were on our way to the main stage first because the YouTube boybamd are doing a bit of singing. Tyler Oakley was hosting it and I absolutely loved Tyler Oakley. He was my G.B.F (gay best friend. Watch the movie, its amazing).

I met a guy called Oli White, he was backstage like me. He got us popcorn and we sat there laughing our heads off. The show was so funny.

After Tyler had finished all the others went on and chatted a bit. There were a lot of zalfie shippers in the crowd and I mean a lot. Most of the questions were like zalfie do this do that. It was so funny. I had zoned out and Joe was snapping his fingers in front of my face.

"Earth to Lucy, it's time for the meet ups and the staff are uunning shirt could you maybe help" he asked me.
"Yeah sure" I said back still a little out of it.

We made our way to the meet up place and got in our positions. I was near the front of Marcus's line so I would open and close the barrier. An alarm went off which meant the fans were aloud in. 4 doors opened and crowds of girls and boys joined each line.

(I have never been to vidcon or plaplaylist so I have no idea what it is like)

Marcus's queue filled up very quickly and one one I let them in. I was really enjoying it until I large group of girls came over. I accidentally tripped one of them up which I said for over again. Her friend was having non of it.
"Excuse me you just tripped over my friend, what are you even doing here. You don't belong. Go away. Go die in a hole. Just go do something and stay away from my friends" she bitched really sassily. I was quite afraid. Marcus had hears none of it. I could feel the panic rising in me. Oh no. Stop. Stop. Quickly, I ran out ignoring the laughter of that girl and her friends. I ran into the bathroom and sat against the wall. My chest felt tight and my throat felt swollen. I struggled for breath. 1 2 1 2 1 2. I slowed my breathing down eventually and just sat there crying my eyes out. I haven't had a panic attack since Grey broke up with me. Its hard talking about it. I just feel like crying every time it comes up. My friend fakes it a lot and it makes me sick to my stomach. She doesn't know what it feels like, to feel like you're dying inside. None of my friends do. None of them even know I have panic attacks. Well a part from Alice.

It was ever since I was 13. I had to have an operation on my stomach because of some growths I had in my ovaries which had popped and were leaking out blood. Every time the pain came on I felt like I was loosing the ability to breath. I couldn't lay down with out them coming on I couldn't even watch TV. It was awful.

Just then Joe burst through the doors.
"Are you ok, I saw you run away, was it them girls?" He asked. It was nice that he thought of me.
I still couldn't really talk so I signed panic attack. He might not know what it means but at times like these I've learned to be prepared. It really helps when I can't talk.

"Panic attack" he said. I nodded weakly. He shouted for Zoe and she came instantly.

It was a good job the meet up was over otherwise I wouldn't be able to cope. Zoe took me up to our room and she tooked me in bed. Zoe has been more of a friend than some of my friends have ever been.