Air ( Shawn Mendes fanfiction)

Chapter 2

{TAYLOR'S POV}

XXX THIS MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SELF HARM SO BE AWARE XXX

I hugged Nash and left the building. It's the first day of school and a whole bunch of shit happened. Just one simple word,

WHY?

Why did this have to happen to me?

Why does this happen at all?

Why was I made to be a mistake?

I really hate myself. Everyone hates me. Nothing makes sense to me anymore. Even my mom will hate me after I tell her what's been going on. She trusts me, I just lost all of that trust because I'm just a freaking moran.

Why me?

I continued walking and a tear rolled down my cheek. I ducked my head so no one could possibly see me crying. 

* About 2 minuets passed *

I'm almost home where I can make myself relieved. I can relax and forget everything. I can actually be happy for a split second.

I slowly grab my house keys and unlock the front door.  Today sucks. Everyday sucks. Why don't I just leave?

I'm gonna do it. I'm going to end it all. I can finally be happy.

I slowly put my bag on the bench and grab my notebook and pens. I walk upstairs to my room and shut the door.

I have it all planned out. I'll slit my wrists and take pills. That way there will most positively not be a way I could be saved. I had to make a phone call though.

I pick up my phone and search for his name in my contacts.

There it is, Shawn Mendes. My one friend I had until I moved, now we don't talk at all. Before I moved we had a huge argument. He basically hates me now; just like everyone else.

I click his name and the phone rings two times before he picks up.

PHONE CALL

S: What do you want?

T: I'm sorry. I love you. Don't hate me. Goodbye, I'm finally ending it.

S: WHAT? TAYLOR? AWNSER ME? YOU CAN'T DO..

And with that I hung up on him.

{SHAWN'S POV}

School sucks with out her. I wish she didn't hate me so much. I really messed up. Class just ended and my phone started to buzz. I left the building and answered.

PHONE CALL

S: What do you want?

Why am I being mean to her? I love her.

T: I'm sorry. I love you. Don't hate me. Goodbye, I'm finally ending it.

S: WHAT? TAYLOR? AWNSER ME? YOU CAN'T DO..

She just hung up on me. I love her and I'm being an ass. She's going to kill herself and I have no clue where she is. All I can remember is that she moved to Polkville three years ago.

I don't know her address but maybe Nash would know saying they go to the same school and all.

My baby girl can't do this. She has so much to live for. Why has it gotten this bad? I know her dad beats her but he's barely around. I feel so bad. I promised her I would never hurt her, ever.

Four years ago she moved away. My baby left me. Before she left we had a big fight. I had a girlfriend at the time and she told me to stay away from Taylor. I knew that it would be hard but, if I wanted to keep her I needed to get rid of Taylor.

After school that day I walked over to Taylor's house to tell her to leave me alone. I knocked on her door. No answer. I was scared, I knocked again, no awnser.

I just let myself in. I walked up to her room and opened the door. Where the fuck is she? I knew where she could be..

I went to her closet to see her there having a panic attack. Shit.. I thought to myself. I picked her up and set her on her bed. I helped her calm down and took a deep breathe.

"Taylor I need to talk to you.."

"Shawn we are talking." She giggled a little bit

"We can't hang out anymore. We aren't friends and..."

"AND WHAT?"

"I hate the way you're always looking for attention. You're not depressed, you're fine, and that's why I hate you."

"YOU HATE ME? IS THAT WHY YOU CAME HERE! GET OUT!"

"Okay.."

"GET OUT OF MY DAMN HOUSE YOU DOUCHE!"

And with that I left the girl I love, I didn't know I was in love her until she left me completely.

I need get her back now. She's my homie, my bestfriend, and the girl I love.

I pull out my phone and message Nash.

(pretend Magcon hasn't happened yet and Shawn only knows Nash because of Cam)

TEXT MESSAGES

S- Hey Nash do you know Taylor Johnson...

N- Of course I do, why?

S- GET TO HER HOUSE NOW AND AFTER YOU GET THERE GO UPSTAIRS TO HER BATHROOM! SAVE HER!

N- ok.....

S- And after you save her text me her address.

I think I just saved her.. I'm not sure. Is Nash Taylor's bully... Hopefully not. Taylor has a life to live no matter what other people have to say about her. She's smart and beautiful, she can make other people smile while she's constantly breaking.

She's important, very important.

She's my everything even if she doesn't know it. I love Taylor Alexis Johnson with all my heart. When she smiles I smile.

Since she left I became one of the popular jerks who bullies everyone. I don't now what has came over me. I promised her I'd never be one of those guys. I let her down..

Nash needs to tell her address...

A/N

HEY! YEA I'M BACK! SORRY I HAVE SCHOOL BUT I'LL BE MORE ACTIVE I PROMISE! NEXT CHAPTER NASH MIGHT HAVE A MOMENT WITH TAYLR. TAYLOR MAY NOT FORGIVE SHAWN..