I'm the Queen Dammit! ...And That Makes You My Dirty Little Secret

All night

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Mariska's POV

I wish I could say that when I woke the next morning that what had occurred yesterday was a crazy nightmare, but it wasn't. And I found this out when I came downstairs to find Julia on top of Kelli, kissing her. Kelli wasn't trying to get away... she was kissing her back! Kelli was running her hands up down Julia's thighs. Julia let out a throaty moan as Kelli pulled her closer. Julia began to unbutton Kelli's shirt, taking the hem and pulling it out from under her pant line. Kelli pulled her suit jacket off in a rush, and then her vest came next.

I couldn't watch it anymore, I ran out of the room hurriedly.

And then I wake up... and I'm sure I'm actually awake now. Kelli is lying next to me, her hands are together under her head, and she is drooling onto the pillow. I turn to face her, my hand resting on her waist. She is still asleep when I pull her closer to me. It's not until I turn her to opposite direction that she wakes up. I rest my head behind her with my nose pushed against her back and she settles again, scooting closer to me. I kiss her back and fall back asleep.

In the morning, I'm alone in bed, and immediately begin to panic again. I rush out of bed and run toward the room where I found Kelli and Julia in my dream. Julia was sitting in a chair by the window, and she was drinking a fresh cup of coffee. I walk to the kitchen, where Kelli is preparing tea. She looks up when I knock on the door frame. "Good morning, I was just about to wake you up."

She hands me my cup, and I drink the hot beverage quickly. The liquid burns my mouth and continues to burn even in my stomach. Kelli is staring at me, seeming a bit taken back. "What, I'm thirsty."

She shrugs it off and takes the cup off of the kitchen counter. I follow close behind, my hand finding their way to her waist as she washes off the cup. She turns around 30 seconds later while she's drying her hands. I take the towel and place it on the counter. Her hands come up to my face, bringing my lips closer to hers. We don't kiss yet, we only stare into each other's eyes. Kelli seems as though she was going to say something, but then brought our lips into contact.

We kissed for a short period of time before I pulled away as I remembered my dream from last night. I let go of her waist, and I back away slowly. I avoid her gaze as I re-watch the scene play out over and over again. I feel Kelli's index finger under my chin, and she lifts my head until out gazes meet.

"Mariska, are you alright?" she asks. Mariska, she only uses my full name when she wants my attention. I look at her face; she's trying to read my expression.

"Yeah, of course I'm fine, why wouldn't I be fine?"

She stares at me with disbelief, "What happened? I know it's hard with Julia here, but it's only today, and then she's gone tomorrow afternoon."

"It's not about that... It's about the fact that I don't want Julia around you anymore."

"She's not going to hurt me, I'll be fine. It's you that I'm worried about."

"I'm not scared about that; I know you can protect yourself. But Julia is very manipulative..."

"Do you think I'm going to fall for her? Baby, I'm with you, not her. And I want to be with you, I can't even imagine being without you after all this," Kelli said; hoping to change my mind.

"I'm just scared; I don't want her to convince you to do anything..." I admitted, breathing deeply before continuing to speak, "I had a dream where I woke up and I came downstairs and Julia was on top of you. At first I thought that she was attacking you, but then you began to kiss her back, and you started taking off your clothes."

She silenced me with her finger that had been under my chin previously. "I'm not going to have sex with Julia; I don't want to have it with her. I only want to have it with the woman I love... And if you're cool with it, once she leaves, I can show you how serious I am."

"That fine by me just be slow when it happens."

"I'll take all night long if that's what you want, Baby."