Mariska's POV
I honestly didn't know what to think of her. I want to trust, I almost do, but every relationship I've had with a woman end horribly. My mother hated me, my maids think I deserved my past, Julia abused me... But Kelli's different. She's cared for me and defended me. But she came from nowhere, what's her background? She so kind, but I just can't bring myself to do anything but lash out on her.
Maybe these feelings might go away, but for now I'll try to give her the kindness she's given me.
"Mistress, you need to eat." I heard Kelli say softly. I looked over at her, she had put a bowl of soup on the table.
"I'm not hungry," I said, turning away from the soup. She sighed.
"It's better than my breakfast," she tried. I looked over at her.
"Better be."
She out the tray on my lap, balancing it on my legs.
"It going to be hot."
"I wish you told me that when you made my tea," I grumbled, stirring the spoon around in the bowl.
"Are you still not over that?" She laughed, a smile resting on her face once she stopped. I couldn't help smiling myself, hoping she didn't notice. I brought the spoon to my face, blowing softly.
"Hmm, you're right."
I finished as much as I could, only making it halfway through the serving. I laid down, pulling the cover to my chin.
"You finished?" She asked. I nodded, closing my eyes. She took the tray and said, "I'll be right back with some water."
She walked out of the room and was back within two minutes. I closed my eyes, acting like I was sleeping. I heard her put the glass down and sit down.
"I know you're not asleep," she said to me. I opened my eyes, trying to looked annoyed.
"And I need to be awake because...?" I asked, waiting for her to give me a reason.
"Do you need anything else before I head off?" She questioned. I shook my head, and she went away. I closed my eyes, waiting for sleep to wash over me.
She cornered me, pushing me To my limits.
"Julia, please stop," I begged as she pushed her hand down the front of my underwear. She laughed, pulled my night gown up. She kissed my lower region, ignoring my pleas.
"Julia, I don't want this, please stop it!" I pleaded, tears streaming down my cheeks.
"It's not always about you, Mariska!" She snapped. I tried to get away, only to have her claw at me.
"Please! I'm not ready! Juliaaa!"
"But you're so wet, I know you want this."
"I don't want this! I'm so scared!" I cried, my cheeks soaked from my tears. She began pumping into me.
"Mistress!" I looked over to see Kelli at my side.
"Kelli! Help me!" I cried.
"Mistress! Wake up!" She screamed, shaking me violently.
I woke up, my cheeks stained with tears. Kelli was in my bed, sitting in her knees.
"Kelli, I was so- so scared," I cried, shaking.
"Shh, it's alright," she cooed, wiping my cheeks.
"I want to get out of this gown," I said, peeling the gown off of my sweet covered body.
"Do you want a bath?" She asked. I shook me head. "You are out of clean gowns, but there is a men's button shirt in my room."
"Please don't leave me alone," I begged, holding onto her wrist.
"I'll be right back, my room isn't too far from here."
"Please! I don't want to be alone," I cried. I was terrified, I hadn't had a nightmare in a while. Kelli looked so worried, she stood up and walked to my side of the bed.
"Mistress, you need clothes, I'll run if you want me to, okay? You're lying in bed without clothes on and I promise I'll be as fast as I can, you won't be alone for more than a minute. No one will hurt you, there's no one in here that would. And if there was, I wouldn't let them. I promised I would protect you until the end and I intend to keep that promise."
"Please be quick," I mumbled.
"I promise." She sprinted out of the room, and she was fast. I say in my bed, looking all around. Kelli was back within a minute, a large white shirt in her hand. She walked over to me, "What did I say?"
I stood up, allowing her to pull the oversized shirt on my body. She buttoned it up, smoothing out the surface. I looked at the full length mirror on my closet door. The shirt went down past my underwear. I laid down again, pulling the blanket up.
"Kelli?"
She turned around, "Yes?"
"Will you stay with me until I fall asleep?" I asked.
"Of course." She sat down on the other side of my bed. Her feet where hanging of the side. I looked over at her. "Oh, did you want me to sit in a chair?"
"No, I just..." I turned away, not wanting to say the rest.
"Oh, okay," she said as she realized what I meant. She took her shoes off as she pulled them onto the bed. She crossed her legs.
"Thanks," I whispered, scooting closer to her.
"Only the best for my Mistress." I heard her whisper to herself.
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