Thoughts Stored Inside

To Tell You or Not

Why is it that I hide
Why is it I won't tell
Why do I keep all inside
Why do I even try
I can tell you what's on my mind
You're present most of the time
Along with how you make me feel
When your around I only smile
My mind for once is clear
Happy, even if just for awhile
I should probably tell you why
I get this pleasant vibe
This warm feeling inside
I've felt it since the first time
And I've known it all along
I came to trust you
To trust you more than most
All you have to do is ask
And I'll tell you if you want to know
I promise I'll never lie
And I'll answer every time
I want to tell you of my own volition
But it's a difficult mission
I don't want to push you away
I don't want to lose you as a friend
I don't want to see this end
I want to tell you, I really do
I want to just tell you that it's you
But I'm afraid
I'm afraid what you might do
What's worse, is I think you know
I think you may have for awhile
I'm not sure though
If that's the case then there's more
More thoughts that come to mind
Why haven't you mentioned it
Are you waiting for me
Do you want me to say it
If so then I will
If you asked I would tell
Even if you don't I might still
But then again
What good would that do
We're miles apart
Three months again till we meet
That's a lot of time
Time for things to change
Maybe I was too late
Maybe you're already gone
A lot can happen during that frame
And then, if you don't feel the same
It might make things weird for you
Knowing that I like you
Knowing that I care
Knowing I'd love to always be there
Knowing that I want you
To hold you close
To comfort you and not let go
Not till you asked
To see and help you be happy
This is why I don't know
This is why I debate
To tell you or no