Thoughts Stored Inside

Feelings Held Within

I love when you're around.
I see the world anew.
You fill the days with joy and laughter.
And make stop and think.
You help capture the beauty of life.
You help bring it to light.
When I'm with you.
The troubles seem to fade.
When I've had a bad day.
You seem to know just what to say.
And that twinkle in your eye?
That will always brighten my day.
I love to see you smile.
And joke around as you do.
You make me feel that maybe.
Maybe I'll get through.
You found your way inside my armor.
And I don't even think you knew.
It just happened so easily for you.
A few have tried and failed.
Or failed to try.
But you?
You did it in a blink.
Which took me by surprise.
I'm not sure what it is about you.
But it just seemed right.
I could trust to let you inside.
My first thought was still to distance.
To help keep us both safe.
I'd been hurt too much before.
Couldn't handle anymore.
Also thought it'd never work.
Thought the first time feelings were fleeting.
But yet they still remain.
I know that in you,
I'll always have a friend.
And I don't know if I want that to end.
Yet I can't help but see.
The beauty that's within.
The adorable things you do.
That precious little smile.
And the sparkle in your eye.
Everything about you draws me in.
You have many aspects I admire.
You're like a new diamond,
Fresh from the fire.
So beautiful by design.
And so kind on the inside.
I wonder if you know.
If you can see it my eyes.
Or how you make me smile.
How when with you,
It happens all the time.
I also wonder if I ever cross your mind.
A side of me wants to tell,
That you often come to mind.
"I wonder how's she doing?"
"What's she thinking?"
Or "How's she feeling?"
While the other side,
The other side likes to be safe.
It likes to keep things inside.
Trying to hide from pain.
It's been hurt far too much.
It makes it harder for me to trust.
It's the side that wants to keep all this.
Keep it all quite and till I can figure out.
But I know that'll never work.
I'll wait too long.
And ask myself "Why?"
It's just what I always seem to do
Which means I'll likely lose you...