Thoughts Stored Inside

Pain

The pain eats away inside

Slowly, mildly, and steadily

Like maggots on a courpse

It's easier that way

To hide it inside

to store it all away

Consume it with darkness

To never allow it light

It's neither friend nor foe

Just a nuance that never leaves

People say I'm weak

And that the pain is unsafe

And I can't disagree

All this inside

Is one day bound to escape

Bound to be freed of it's cage

They say it'll consume me

Take me over piece by piece

Slowly chipping away

Coating me in darkness

Sheilding out the light

And again I must concur

I can feel it fighting back

Trying hard to break free

I fight back blow for blow

But I know I'm losing strength

This pain wants to express

It's the emotion that knows

The emotion with no bounds

The emotion that I've known longest

Welled up inside for years

Just to prevent the tears

The brave face

The mask of all

The smile that all have come to know

Is all a facade

Basically just a dream

Something developed

To keep all off the trail

To wall off my mind

And to protect my heart

To seal in my pain

To keep it from others

Keep it from spreading

And to sheild them from hurting

But they make it so hard

They draw me so close

That they nearly break it all

The chinks in my armor

They always seem to find

And one day I fear

I won't be able to hide it

I fear they might strike it

Breaking it all down

And I hope I can handle it

And that I'm mostly alone

So no one can see

I couldn't bare to spread the pain

To see the look on their face

Would be like a knife to the heart

A shot that would bring me to my knees

A wound I'd never be able to fix

A scar that I caused

Inflicted from the truth

Seared into the hearts

Of all that share in it

A memory that will never forget

A shadow that lurks in the light

The side of me no one sees

The me eclipsed in pain