What If I Love You? (Phan)

16-Phil

The Day At Last

Setting foot on the plane, I'm sat in row 22, next to two people. Their backs looked a lot like Troye and Connor but I know when they turn to face me...

"Phil!" Troye and Connor greet me as I sit down and we make small talk but I can't ignore the small glances they keep making at each other. Connor looks at Troye like he's his everything in the world and he'll protect him with his life while Troye looks at Connor with pure love and hope, as if he can see a future in his eyes. It's beautiful.

Descending into Heathrow Airport

"So why are you guys coming to London?" I finally ask the two who have took about fifty of the oh-so-tumblr shot out of the plane window pictures.

"Oh well we want to see everyone properly before VidCon so Louise, Zoe and Alfie are all coming to London and we're holding a formal party with the rest of the Brits which we have yours and Dan's invitations in Troye's bag," Connor explains, gesturing up to the compartment with their hand luggage.

"Wow that sounds really cool. I don't want to sound pushy but is there another reason for the party?" I gently ask,

"Yeah, there is," Troye grins goofily while glancing at Connor, " but you'll have to wait two days Phil!" Troye laughs as we land in the airport.

"Ready to see him?" One of them asks,

"Oh yes," I whisper.

Grabbing my bag from the overhead compartment, I sigh as all the people exiting the plane are just too slow! Connor places a hand on my shoulder, as if to say 'calm down, it's not long,' and I just take a deep breath. Finally, it's my turn to get off the plane and I run through Passport Control to get to Luggage Reclaim (this probably isn't how heathrow airport is set up or it could be, I haven't been but I have a cute fluffy idea so shh and have some pizza.) Looking around, I can't see a sign with my name so I struggle with getting my case off the carousel.

What if I ruined my chance with the stupid video?

"Stupid, stupid, stupid!" I mutter under my breath as I still struggle with my case.

"I do hope you're not talking about me Phillip," a voice whispers in my ear while two strong arms lift my case. Turning around, I wrap my arms around him.

"I missed you so much," I say, and it's just like a movie because tears are falling down my face.

"Phil, it's okay, I'm here," Dan rubs my back and I suddenly wonder if he's seen the video.

"Dan?" I whisper, still not able to get over how stupid I was putting that up.

"Yes Lion?" Oh but when he does things like this, how could I not admit how I feel.

"Did you see the video?" He nods and I immediately tense up, because I'm an idiot. I break away from his embrace, still muttering how stupid I am, when Troye and Connor run over.

"Here's the invitations!" They smile, handing them over before running to get their car.

"We should umm go," I say, dragging my case.

S T U P I D  M E

By the time we get to the car, I'm crying a little but I hide it, so Dan doesn't see more of my stupid.

"Did you have a good time?" Dan makes idle chit chat and I mumble a yes. He stops trying after that and turns to the radio where ILYSB by LANY is playing on a random station.

"Ain't never felt this way,
Can't get enough so stay with me,"
That's true, I've never felt so strong and so in love with someone before and the feeling is addicting, I don't want him to ever leave,

"It's not like we've big plans,
Let's drive around town holding hands

One of his hands is not on the steering wheel but I don't take it, I'm too scared. The song keeps playing until we park. Instantly, I grab my bag and run to the elevator, trying to just walk in but Dan sneaks in too. Now we're together in a confined space when I realise we didn't grab our phones from the car. When I explain this to Dan, he says to drop off my bag and then get them which is smart.
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"Why is the lift taking so long?!" Dan shouts after we get our phones, he then punches the wall of it, resulting in a groan and then it stops.

"Dan, what did you do?" I whisper, sitting down in the corner. The lights have gone out and we're alone. A voice then tells us it'll be fixed soon. All we can do is wait.

"Here," Dan turns on the flashlight on his phone before playing some music. Passenger - Let Her Go immediately plays and it helps add to my depressed aesthetic and the tears in my eyes. Stop being so pathetic! Tears still stream down my face and though I try to be quiet, I hear a shuffling noise and Dan puts his arms around me, holding me tight.

"I'm sorry Phil," Dan sighs, rubbing his hands on my arms,

"Why? You did nothing wrong," he sighs again before turning off the music.

"I didn't tell you what I thought of the video and now you're upset." Dan states, letting go of me a bit.

"Well what did you think?" I mumble, getting ready for rejection, when Dan slides in front of me. Placing one arm around my neck, he puts the other around my waist, pulling me in closer to him.

"This,"'and with that, he connects our lips in a kiss, both hands moving up to my hair, twirling strands round his fingers. Gently tracing my bottom lip with his tongue, I gasp and he takes the chance to deepen the kiss. Instantly I kiss back, wrapping my arms around his neck and sitting on his lap to break the distance between us. Slowly the lift doors open and we both run out to the flat. When I open the door, Dan goes in for another kiss but I run to my room, instantly regretting it when I hear him cry. I don't open my door though.