What If I Love You? (Phan)

15- Sian Lester

A/N I was stuck, I needed a filler and this happened. Sorry.

2 Days Until Cousin Phil Gets Home

Birds tweeting, I groan as I turn to face the man in my bed.

"Sian,"

"Joe," He simply winks at me before sliding away into my kitchen,

"What time is it for Caspar and Phil?" I ask, hoping to call Phil,

"umm, just call him anyway," Joe shouts over some noise- I hope he doesn't break my kitchen again. Taking my phone off charge, I find Phil's number and ring him.

"Hello?"

"Hey Phil, it's Sian! Have I woken you up?" I don't think I have but I've never been too smart.

" No no, don't worry! How are things with Mr Sugg?" Obviously he brings Joe up,

"It's good, we're going to film the Girlfriend tag," I bite my lip,

"I don't want you to get hurt," He's practically my brother- well he is the next best thing,

"I don't want to see you get hurt. I saw him yesterday. I was busking and he joined in and it was at 5 am. He didn't look happy until I mentioned you. He lit up," I tell him, lying back down.

"Really?" Phil sounds so happy,

"Really Phil. Promise me you'll invite me to your wedding," I giggle a little at the end,

"Maid of honour. We should have two but, Mae," He trails off at the end. Mae Niamh Rivers. She used to be my best friend but now, sadly, she's gone.

"She would lose her shit," I tell him,

"She was the biggest Phan shipper, it is true," Phil admits, I know he'll be sad now,

"Cheer up, you're flying back tomorrow morning," I smile,

"Oh sugar! I need to pack," Phil remembers,

"Phil I'm 21, but bye bro,"

"See ya sis," We've always said this, it's just a small way to say 'I appreciate you,' ya know?

"Call me when you get home if you're not frickle frackling," I laugh,

"Bye Sian,"

"Love ya Phil!" Hanging up, I patter to the kitchen where Joe is making pancakes.

"Mmm," I walk out of the room, silently hoping Joe would ask if we could go to his house. It just has such a family feel with his dad and sister. I love it.

"Oh, Sian," Joe calls so I skip back in to the room,

"Yes Joe Joe," Sitting on the counter, I grab two glasses from a cabinet.

"Do you want to come round mine to film so we can eat with Zoe and Dad?" Joe asks,

"Yes that would be great," I smile at him as he sings along to the song on the radio.

Sitting at my table, I'm watching the news with a plate of pancakes while Joe is taking a shower. Or singing Chasing Cars with his beautiful voice.

"What a classic!" I shout but just listen.

"If I lay here,

If I just lay here,

Would you lie with me,

And just forget the world," Forget the world. What if I care too much about what people think? Some people can be brave but I'm too scared. Little Sian, too scared of society. I joke about it but it's the truth. I'm terrified.