i can't lose her

truly, madly, deeply

After a week of being in hospital, I was finally able to be released today. The doctors said I only have a year to live, and then that’s it. It’s over. My life will officially be over and there’s nothing I can do about it. 19 years of life will just be taken away.

Harry was coming around one o’clock to pick me up, and it’s currently twelve o’clock. Gives me an hour to prepare myself. I packed up my care bag that Harry brought for me. I also got changed out of this ugly hospital dress, in a nice pair of black skinny jeans, and a loose floral shirt which ended a bit past my stomach. I then added light baby pink flats to top off the look. I looked at the time, 5 more minutes till Harry got here so I decided to read a book he brought me. It is called ‘pushing the limits ‘, such an amazing book.

I got too caught up into the book to hear the door open, and I felt a pair of big cuddly arms, wrap around my petit figure and hug me tighter than anyone I know. ‘’ H-h-harry? ‘’ I asked, unsure if it was him. He put his mouth on my ear and whispered, ‘’ yeah it’s me baby, let’s get you home ‘’. He helped me get off the bed and grabbed my hand before we started walking off down the hall and into the elevator.

‘’so baby, are you hungry? ‘’ he asked. It is so adorable that he actually cares for me. ‘’ yeah I am kind of hungry, but I don’t want to trouble you. I’ll just eat when we get back to college or something ‘’ I said. He looked at me and gave me a genuine smile, ‘’ baby, you’re not troubling me if I’m trying to help you? Besides, I’m kind of hungry too ‘’ he said, squeezing my hand tighter.

We rode down the elevator with his arms wrapped around my waist, and our fingers intertwined. He kept giving me sweet little kisses on my neck, which made the hairs on my body stand up, and my stomach go crazy. I love Harry so much; I just don’t know what I’d do without him.

When we got to his car, he opened my door for me and let me in the car like a true gentleman. He gave me a quick kiss on the lips before shutting the door and going around to his side.  He got in and gave me a cheeky grin. ‘’ what’s wrong? ‘’ I asked, unsure of why he was smiling like that. He looked at me and said ‘’ oh nothing, let’s just enjoy the ride ‘’.

I turned the radio on, and the song ‘truly, madly, deeply ‘by one direction was playing. Harry looked at me and started singing.

‘’ Truly, madly, deeply I am, foolishly completely falling,

and somehow you kicked all my walls in,

so baby say you’ll always keep me,

I’m truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love,

with you ‘’

I got tears in my eyes, ‘’ Harry Styles, I love you so much, and for the record, I am truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you too ‘’ and then, I kissed him on the cheek.