i can't lose her

i'm not an alien, i just have cancer.

After 20 minutes, Harry and I were outside of Nandos. I looked at him and he was giving me a small smile, ‘’ Harry, why are we here? ‘’ I asked. He looked at me with a serious look now, ‘’ well baby, you are my girlfriend now and you have been in hospital for 9 days, which means we’ve never had a second date, and since you’re hungry, I couldn’t think of a better place to have a date other than Nandos. I mean… it is your favourite restaurant. So come on baby, let’s eat ‘’.

Harry was so cute sometimes. At times, he was my dork of a best friend, who slept with his stuffed toy till the age of 14. Or the kid who was missing his two front teeth for his first grade school photos. Or even that kid that would make up any possible excuse that has been known to mankind, about why he hasn’t done his homework. Then, at other times he is my boyfriend Harry. The one who took me out to Times Square and showed my face on every screen and asked me to be his girlfriend. The guy who stayed at the hospital for all those nine days, not missing a chance on when I’d wake up and be safe. Or the guy who is taking me to favourite restaurant right now, so we can have our second date and because he knows I’m hungry.

‘’ Harry, stop being so damn cute. I’m so lucky to have you, I love you so much Harry Edward Styles ‘’ I said, before planting a kiss on his lips. We kissed for a few seconds before I felt his tongue lick my bottom lip for entry, and I gladly allowed it. Our tongues moved to a rhythm that only we knew, giving me so much pleasure. He is an amazing kisser. He pulled lips apart, keeping our foreheads stuck together. ‘’ I love you too Sienna Marie Siciliano, with everything I have ‘’.

We got out of the car and walked into Nandos. We found a small booth in the corner, isolated from all the others. We sat across from each other, just looking into each other’s eyes. I studied his face. I never realize how his pupils would dilate every time he saw me smile. Or the way his dimples go deeper every time I said ‘I love you ‘. Or how his eyebrows would go inwards, when he concentrated really hard.

It’s the little things like that, that made me realize how amazing Harry is, and why I’m so in love with him.

We ate for a few hours before we got back to our campus on college. We got out of the car, and started walking. It felt weird being back here after 9 days. As I walked through the field, I could feel everyone’s eyes staring at me. I started to get really nervous. ‘’ Harry, why are people staring? ‘’ I asked.

He looked at me and then looked down at the ground, ‘’ umm Sienna… the reason they are looking at you is because well… they know you’re sick ‘’

I can’t believe people are staring at me because I’m sick. I am not an alien, I just have cancer.