"Married to Won-jerk" [Wonwoo]

Chapter 19. If you

Soomi's POV

"Um... sure" I said coming back to the bed, and lying down next to Wonwoo. I felt him shift, to make more room for me. I felt warmth next to me, as soon as i lied down. I turned and faced him, his eyes were filled with sadness and his complexion was not too good. The playboy who didn't hesitate on kissing me, and hugging me, and making fun of me, was gone. Instead i saw a guy, who cared, who seemed too fragile, who looked as if he was broken. And for some reason... I hugged him. Bringing my body closer to him, and putting my arms around his chest.

"Have good dreams" I whispered into his hair. I smelt his cologne, and felt his warm skin, tingling uder mine. He sighed and hugged me back, Bringing me closer to him. I felt his chest rising and settling back down, i felt at peace knowing he was sleeping peacefully. I soon let my eyes close, and felt sleep, fading reality away.

I woke up, with light shinning through the curtains, i heard the birds chirping, and the wind softly whistling. It was just like a dream. I pinched myself, thinking it can't be real..... It hurt :( I looked around taking in my surroundings.... Wow... i need to clean this room up... I looked towards the side of the bed, where the sheets were crumpled, and it was also... empty. I got up stretching my back, and arms. I walked outside the room, the house was quiet.... Nothing was heard except for the sound of my feet, walking on the wood floor. I looked around the house, softly calling Wonwoo's name. I was hoping to see Wonwoo hiding somewhere, so i began looking in ridiculous places.

Under the kitchen sink, In the bathtub, In closets, and under beds. I couldn't find him... I began to panic, what if something happened?... Where could he have gone? I walked back into my room, sitting down on our bed, making the mattress tilt. I lied down where Wonwoo, was yesterday... I smelt his scent, as it filled my nose, and made me think... Do i miss him? No.... Maybe? Yes.. I miss him... Do i like him then? Probably.... Yes... UGH... Why does he make me feel this way? I just... I don't know if... maybe i didn't... Maybe i didn't love myungsoo... Maybe i over reacted, because it was my first love... I just. Whenever i'm with him, my heart feels like, it ran a mile... My head spins, and a strange feeling builds up in my stomach... Is this normal? What's wrong with me? Where is he? I started to scan the room once more. On the bedside table, i noticed a slight bit of color, sticking up from the surface of the table. I face palmed myself, how did i miss that? I twas a sticky note. I picked it up, using a little more force on the side with the sticky stuff. My breath caught. No...

'Hi soomi

I've decided to let you go. To let you live life, to the fullest, and to live it the way you want. Even though it might hurt me, go find someone who you care about, and who means a lot to you. Find someone who makes you smile, and who brings out the best you.I'll come back when i'm ready to face my parents. I'm going to America. I'd like to organize my thoughts and repent. I don't deserve you, but somehow... You came into my life and you came to me. I'll think of you often.

- Wonwoo (Your Playboy)'

Wonwoo... You care about me... You mean a lot to me.... Even if it might be too late. You make me smile, you make my heart beat faster, you make my head spin, and you make the butterflies in my stomach multiply. You brought me memories, you brought out the real me... Come back now... Come back so i can say these things out loud... To you.

I didn't know what to do. My chest ached, and my eyes, burned with tears, but they wouldn't fall.... I can stop him. And with a sprint of hope, I grabbed my phone, without bothering to change, hurried out to the living rooom. I called for a taxi, and told him to hurry... I ran to my front step, and prayed i wasn't too late. Please Wonwoo... Come back to me. I locked the door, and closed my eyes. Wonwoo... You came into my life, and gave me hope, you made me happy.... The few laughs i've ever had in my life... I'm happy it was with you. Because of you, i found a friend, and even made a new one. Thank you for being part of my life. I heard the taxi, it's tire, making friction with the ground and slowing to a stop in front of me. I hurried in, and told him to go to the airport quickly and that it was urgent. I paid him the amount i needed to pay, earning a curious stare from the driver. Well.. I was in my pajamas. We started off and i began to feel worried with every minute that passed. We finally arrived and i quickly climbed out, muttering a quick thank you to the driver. I ran into the airport's international, baggage check in. I looked at the departing flights.