"Married to Won-jerk" [Wonwoo]

Chapter 28. Do i still love you?

Wonwoo's POV

I was still running calling her name.

It wouldn't be too long until it was morning.

The pitch blackness raised and bits of light were starting to stream into the dark.

Why can't i seem to find her?

I need to know why.... 

Why did she leave me?

Why is she blind?

Where did she go?

Please Soomi, i need answers

i need you back...

please... Please 

Even if it's for one day.

No 

One hour.

No

One minute

Not even

I only need a second. 

I just need to tell you i'm sorry.

I'm sorry that i didn't look for you.

I'm sorry that i couldn't protect you.

I don't know why you left but... 

I'm sorry i couldn't stop you.

But it doesn't seem like you're coming back anytime soon...

Are you?

I stopped running, and touched my stinging cheek, running around in the cold night, with salty tears. Left my skin caked with layers of dried tears. 

I walked infront of a shop's window, and stared into the reflection.

My eyes had bags under them.

They were red and swollen.

My throat was dry and aching from the screaming and running.

My lungs were in so much pain. 

My legs burned from the countless times i had fallen.

My shirt was smudged with dirt and blood.

My hands were red and scratched with dried blood.

My hair was messy and oily. 

But i couldn't help but notice that it didn't matter.

Nothing did.

I'd lived with a lie for 2 years...

How can this be possibly worse?

I lost the love of my life.

Nothing mattered.

I kept walking. 

My heart slowing down.

My lungs picked up every scrape of oxygen it could.

My legs numbed and so did my hands

I walked and walked, feeling the new sunlight shine on my head.

Avoiding the stares of people rushing to work and going about they're day.

Why can't i be like that.

With Soomi kissing me on the cheek, telling me to do good at work. Holding our child safe in her arms.

I would tell her to stay safe and kiss the baby's head, and leave for work. 

And if that all happened..

I would be walking on the sidewalk, getting work like everybody else it seemed.

But no...

Here i was wishing for a wife who was lost, and a non existent child... Wishing for them to be in my life. 

I didn't know when i'd go back. I'd have to leave Soori ofcourse. Something tells that i won't be able to but... I need to. For as much as i know. She knew about Soomi but didn't tell me. She lied to me all this time. She wasn't sensitive like Soomi was. She had no scars. She lived life as bright as anybody else. Not like Soomi who cared about everything she did. She was careful and sensitive. She was smart and funny. She was romantic and sweet. She loved me with all her heart but i didn't know i was living with someone else. Hurting her for all i know. 

I wish i could go back into time and fix everything. From the day i lost her, to yesterday when i left her on the beach.

I wish... I had a second chance.

I wish i had a chance to tell her all of this. 

When i can tell her that everything was okay and that i loved her with all of my heart. 

But... I can't find her.

I lost her.

How can i possibly tell her anything.

I was walking infront of a hospital now. The sun fully out of it's hiding place and smiling brightly over me. Lucky you, you have the strength to smile right now. I sighed and looked up at the sky. Bright blue and beautiful mixtures of clouds. I smiled slightly forgetting about my reality. It was just. How foolish it was to always assume that the sun was always happy. It  could just be smiling through pain... Smiling more brightly to get rid of assumptions. I get how you feel. 

I thought about how beautiful my life was. Even with Soori i made beautiful memories, the ones i had with Soomi, the bad, the good. Everything made me who i was today... A loser who lost the only thing that mattered to him, but was smiling brightly up at the sky, with tears falling out of his eyes. Reliving the memories of the past. I yelled with all of my might. It felt good to let it out. I yelled more.

"I'M SORRY SOOMI! I'M SORRY I LOST YOU! I'M SORRY ABOUT EVERYTHING" I yelled, i laughed with relief, and closed my eyes.

"I WISH I COULD SEE YOU... I WISH YOU WERE HERE! I WISH I COULD GO BACK!" I yelled, tears doubling over and my smile growing brighter with every bit of pain i felt. I was surprised.

"ME TOO! I WISH I COULD SEE YOU! I WISH I COULD GO BACK!" I opened my eyes slowly.... I saw Soomi on the other side of the cross walk. Her eyes unfocused, but she smiled brightly and tears streamed her face. 

"Soomi...." I whispered. 

She wiped her tears, and started walking... Her hair blowing around her tear streamed face, her legs almost stumbling. 

"NO! SOOMI NO! STAY THERE!" 

She was already halfway across the road, when the screech was heard. People gasped and yelled for her to get out of the way.

Panic spread throughout her face

A car advancing and about to hit her.

"SOOMI!" But it was too late...

No.... 

"AHHH!" 

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Cliffhanger! 

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