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          "Sometimes when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated"- Sam Lartiv.

          9 October, 2015

     " Happy Birthday Belle, " I beguiled into Belle's ear as she walked past me, only to give me a wide grin with lit up hazel eyes.

        Her grin made my heart jump to scattered positions of me. I was beaming like an absolute idiot as she walked over to her seat.

        "Hello class, I'm Mr. Tomlinson and will be substituting for professor Burns, third period only"

        Belle didn't walk in my door for fifth period.

        I stared out the door's window consistently, hoping she had been running late. Hoping Belle would walk in, lay a kiss on my lips before walking to her seat.

       I truly began wondering What are the odds? When Astrid inserted the idea into my head late last night as we texted, you know, like friends do.

        Hey, Astrid, what's the dating age difference you go by?

       Belle would be turning 17 today. I'm 23.

        Eh, like around 2 or 3 yrs.

       You see, in a perfect world, I would fall head over heels for Astrid, who is age appropriate for me. She's 21.

       But. This isn't a perfect world and I am addicted to a girl I can't have. A girl I will never be able to call mine. A girl whom won't ever lay her eyes on me. Because it would be sick. It would be wrong. A shame.

        Are you going to do something about your relationship with Belle?

       Why had I asked her?
       To know if Belle & I could work out in the figments my imagination?
       Pssh, don't be so stupid.
       Well... Yeah, that's exactly why.
       But I had to lie.

       I'm not sure

       You know what u would be getting into

       I've known it from the moment she made my heart jump

 
     I hadn't been able to focus at fifth and sixth period, only having two things on my mind.

      1: Why didn't Belle show up to class?

      And.
     
      2: Does she like me?

    I questioned them, on the way out of the deserted halls, having my mind soeed through details I could have missed. Then, my mind wandered to other fantasies...

      Soft blubbering had my ears perking to the hidden wall of a bungalow I'd just walked by. I retraced my steps back as the blubbering got louder. Hidden in her arms, fetal position, leaning against the wall, there she was, Belle.

      Walking towards her, I took in no hesitation, as I squatted next to her, "Belle?" I questioned lightly, afraid to lay a single touch on her.