I Love You! Asshole.

FIVE

It's amazing how pain can change a person. Wether it makes the person better or not, it definately turns their world around. In this case, it changed mine the other direction I never thought I would find myself at a situation I currently am at.

I'm officially a hobo. I live on this cliff just up state and would only go down to civilisation if I need food or something. I've survived off a few dollars a week only. I don't want to declare it but, I've gone mental. I think I'm just waiting for my brain rot honestly.

I threw my last cigarette onto the ground as I started to walk over to my truck again. I played music aloud like I did every night since I left. Which was around a year ago. I still go on facebook and instagram and check on Jake to see how he's doing. He looks much better and happier at graduation. I just feel bad staring at him smiling. I feel like I caused him sadness as I got him involved.

But that was a year ago. The world's changed, I've seen it. I live on a fucking mountain, I stalk the world 24/7. The world looks lively up here. Like the world just regained peace after war. But I would never dare to look closely at the world and see it's ugly side.

I sighed as I layed my head. My appearance also changed. I've now got a beard and long hair that I often wear in a top knot.

I know I could but I could never get myself into a relationship or even have sex as I would feel like I cheated on jake. I didn't even get to spend much time with him nor ask him to be mine properly but I'm acting like we're in a committed relationship. I also haven't had sex in a year, can you believe that?

Though Jake's probaby with some douche now, I couldn't really care. At least that's what I plant in my head. I probably care somewhere deep in my heart but I'm good all on my own. If I did encounter Jake in the world below, I would hug him and if he would let me, I would kiss him and have sex with him. Y'know what they say; you only regret the chances you didn't take.

I started to close my eyes when I felt my phone ring. I check the caller ID and it said "Jake Faye". It has been a while since he tried to call me but I didn't pick up. The first week I left, he kep calling me every hour but I never picked up. He would try to call me at least once a month but I never really knew if I was ready to talk to him or not. He probably hates my guts.

"Shit," I mumbled when I realised I pressed answer. Fuck! I held the phone to my ear and prepaired myself for what Jake has to tell me.

"Oh my god, baby! Holy shit I've been trying to contact you! I love you asshole! How dare you leave me like that!?" I miss his voice so much I started to cry.

"I-I-I-I-I m-m-miss you too baby," I cried into the phone.

"Baby where are you? I'm coming to see you and we're going to stay at my place. I told my parents about us and they insisted I try to reconnect with you and that you can stay at our's, baby please just tell me. Don't block me out," He assures me and I kept crying. I really couldn't say anything.

"I, can I just meet you somewhere? This place is a bit off-place." I told him.

"Okay babe, where?" He asks me.

"Uhm, I'll just go to your's." I suggested.

"Okay babe, I'll be waiting for you at my doorstep. I love you! Stay safe baby, I can't wait to see you again." whispers.

"I love you too," I replied and set my phone down.

I took a deep breath in as I drove down the mountain. The love of my life and I, reunited again. How delightful.

+++

When I arrived at their front, Jake wasn't there like he said so but what is there to loose at knocking on his door right? I locked my car and jogged up to the door. I fixed my hair on the window before pressing to the buzzer. I hope he recognises me...

"Alex!" Jake yells when he opened the door. He literally jumped on me and started to place sloppy kisses on my face.

"Jake..." I whispered as our lips met in an instant.

"Sorry I didn't wait for you outside, it started to get chilly." Jake explains.

"That's alright baby," I told him kissing im deeply once more. before he let me in.

I sat down on the couch warming myself up from the cold. Jake left to get me some warm coffee as I comforted myself on the couch. Jake returned in a few with a mug of coffee followed by his mom.

"You must be the famous Alex." Jake's mom tells me and I nod my head. "I'm Beth." She holds her hand out for me to shake and I did so.

"I'm not that famous," I laughed taking a sip off coffee.

"Have you really been gone that long? You're around the news as 'Runaway Alex Owen Dead At 17'. But Jake has been persistent that you're still alive after the news which clearly you are. He said that he knew you were alive because you were charging your phone which is why your phone never died. I wonder how that news really seemed legit." Beth explains.

Wow, were my parents really that big of assholes they considered me dead?

"Parents are doctors so that's probably why," I shrugged and yawned.

"Ya must be exhausted, go ahead and rest at the guess bedroom. Jake lead him there." Beth tells me.

"Thank you so much," I said truthfully.

I followed Jake to a bedroom a floor above the living room and just flopped on the bouncy bed. It's been a longass time since I've slept in one and oh how dear lord did I miss it.

"Joining me?" I cooed to Jake who just stood by the door.

"Ya ass!" He snorts as he jumped into the bed with me.