I Love You! Asshole.

SIX

"Are you ready?" Jake asks me after minutes of cuddling.

"Ready? For what? Sex?" He nods his head. "Yeah actually,"

"Took you long enough,"  He smirks and climbs over me.

He hovered over me as our lips were just centimeters apart. Our breaths bouncing off each other's. It's at this point I forgot about everything. All the pain I've gone through, the neglect. Everything. Just Jake and I. Together in a cold winter's night.

His lips latched onto my neck. Drawing patterns with his tongue and sucking with his lips. My sweats were starting to expand themselves at I started to feel hotter and hotter when i felt Jake through his denim jeans.

Hips grinding, lips on necks, hand scratching backs and moans erupting across the room. That was where we were.  I let him have his way with me. It felt right. 

"Baby, are you sure?" He wonders staring deeply into my eyes.

My response was latched lips followed by a reassuring nod. I felt his lips pull into a smile against mine as I felt him pull the string of my sweats. He was so gentle. Made me feel small underneath him. He pulled my sweat down and quickly removed his jeans.

He grinded against me and I moaned out loud at the action. It felt so fucking good!  He continued to grind against me as he sucked on my neck. Our shirts thrown somewhere in the room.

We really had no seconds to spare without having contact with each other's body. I felt his hand slide into my boxers. Feeling my manhood before dragging the fabric down to ankles which I kicked off.

He grabbed my member with his hand. Giving it a few strokes as he made love to my neck. I felt helpless under his touch. It was as if I was just a mannequin as he made love to me.

I slid my hand into his boxers. Feeling him, he was huge. It scared me a little, what if he ripped me open? But it was well worth it right? We both wanted this. Hell I made him wait a year.

I felt him slide a finger between my two cheeks. Rubbing my hole teasingly before slowly entering a finger in. The new feeling was uncomfortable but I needed more of it.

"Fuck.." I moaned as he thrusted his finger in.

He pressed his lips against mine, muting my moans as he thrusts not one but two fingers in. Oh god, now I was desperate. Fuck! I needed him inside me. He trusted in deeply once more.

"Baby, please..I'm good." I stuttered through the undeniable pleasure reaping through my body.

"You sure?" I nod and bit my lip.

He slid his fingers out before replacing it with d!ck. He pushed in slowly, ripping me a little. It fucking hurts but I just need more. He was doing it agonizingly slow when all I could really ask was for him to go deeper inside me.

"You okay?" He asks.

"Amazing," I replied and slid down his c0ck.

He started to thrust me in me and I gripped the sheets. My knuckles turning ghost white. I bit on my lip as he fucked me straight like there was no tomorrow. He kept at his pace, pulling out slowly and pushing back in fast.

But it wasn't fast enough. I needed a little more beast.

"Baby, faster..." I groaned and he did so.

He took my member in his hand and stroke it as he fucked me. Oh my fucking god..this is amazing!!!

"You feel so fucking good..." Jake sighs, thrusting into me once more.

"I'm c-c-coming.." I warned him and he only paced up.

That was it. That was all it took for me to shot out and explode all over his chest. He scooped some of mine from his chest and licked it. Oh god..

"You taste good," Jake expressed licking his lips before thrusting into me more. Oh god, I really don't think I could come again. My body's shaking, this has got to be the best sex I've ever had!

I hummed as I tightened my muscles. His eyes shot open and I saw the stars dance in his eyes.

"Fuck babe, I'm coming!" Jake yells and slowly slide himself out.

But no, I was going for something different. I grabbed his hips, pushing him once more. I groaned at the uneasiness but this was what I wanted badly.

"Inside me," I commanded and he swallowed and did just that.

I felt him fill me up and I feel like I could be leaking for days. He dove inside me deeply and fell on top of me shuddering. I welcome his weight as I massaged his back.

We stayed like that for a minute before he got up to pull himself out. I frowned. It felt weird not having him inside me...

He fell beside me and I pulled his body close to mine and spread the blankets over us.

"I love you," I whispered and kissed his forehead.

"I love you too," He replied softly before dozing off.

+++

I woke up the following morning badly sore. Jake also wasn't beside me anymore. I couldn't blame him, it was nearly noon and Jake was a person who woke at seven on weekends. I stood and pulled my sweat to my waist and my white shirt over my head. I grabbed my phone and struggled my way out of the bedroom.

The house was straightforward. A staircase at the end of the hallway. I walked down to see Beth cooking pasta and humming some song from the 80s.

"Oh shit," Sge mumbles lightly.

"Gd'morning Beth. What's up?" I greet her confused.

"Uhm, why don't you go back up to the bedroom and take a shower first," At this point she was pushing me towards the stairs. Jeez, did I really stink from living in a car?

"I gotta get my clothes first," I told her and slightly pushed her to the side.

I turned around towards the living room where the front door was and Jake was sitting on some guy's lap kissing him.

"What the fuck!?" I shouted.

"Alex!" Jake says, leaping out of the douche's lap.

"So you call me to tell me you loved me, get me to your place, fuck me then the following morning be down somebody's throat? How shallow!" I snapped and stomped over to the door but Jake stopped me.

"Alex! You left for a year. You left me scarred and you think I would be able to cope with that? Fuck no! Of course I had to go find someone new." Jake explains, what a low thang.

"Well sweet! Looks like you already found someone new then. How do you still have the guts to kiss me, fuck me and tell me that you love me. A fucking year I spent alone! I didn't snoop on other girls or guys, I would feel like I cheated on you! I came back for you Jake. I could've stayed on that fucking cliff if it weren't for you." Now I was crying. But my sadness was more hyped than my anger for him.

"Why a year though? You made me wait for you for a fucking year. Why can't it just be a month? Why!?" Jake retorted.

"I've never felt better," I choked.

And so the running away repeated itself all over again. This time, it was from someone I gave myself to.