Breathless

Chapter 31: You don't own me

It felt like my eyes were going to pop of my skull. What the hell was he doing here?

"What are you doing Adam?" I asked trying not to let the anger seep into my words. I was gripping the window sill so hard that my knuckles turned white.

"What do you mean? I'm going to school of course. I did just finish high school." His words faked the innocence he wanted but his tone gave away his true feelings. He was here for me.

"Stay away from me, Adam." I said, still not believing that he was right there. I could jump over to him if I wanted to. If the rooms are so close together, what  was the point of the window?

"No can do, cupcake. I'm not letting you die." He said and shook his head as he crossed his arms over his chest. It was this action that made my eyes wander down to his body. His skin was smooth looking and I wanted to touch his muscles. I wanted to know what it felt like to be held by him again. As if he could read my mind, he crossed the gap between the windows and slid into my room with ease, causing me to stumble back. He could have at least told me so I could have moved.

"You still  want me, don't deny it." He said as he took a step towards me and I took one back. I could not believe we were paying this game again. 

"I do and I'm not denying it but I deserve better than you." I replied stuttering a little from the proximity. His half naked body was having an effect on me that I both loved and hated.

"We are meant to be together autumn, regardless of what you think of me. No one will ever love you as much as I do." He was still walking towards me and I was walking backwards.

"Adam, I don't trust you." I said and tried to look anywhere but his eyes. Of course it didn't work. They were drawing me into them like they were trying to hypnotize me.

"I'll make you trust me." He replied ever so softly but with ambition way more intense than anything I've ever seen. "Before you found out, everything was perfect. You know that is true. I was everything you've ever asked for. I know because you ended up being more than what I asked for. You can't throw that -us away. Im not going to let you die."

I sighed deeply and looked him fully in the eyes. I started to feel my guard slide. It was true what he said. He was the best I've ever had. He always knew what I was feeling even if I didn't tell him. He took better care of me than my parents. No matter what he did or thought or said, he'd always put me and my needs first. He made every dream come true. How could I ever ask for anything better?

You can ask for someone who doesn't lie about the biggest part of his life.

A little voice piped up in my head. It was all about trust. A relationship was nothing without it. Maybe I could give him a second chance because I really did love how we were together but he'd have to earn it first.

"Fine. You can try to earn my trust again but I'm not promising it'll be easy." I said and gave him a stern look. Relief flushed across his face and he smiled in pure happiness. I hadn't seen him so genuinely happy in such a long time and it made my heart swell with joy.

"I'd expect nothing more." He said and pushed a strand of hair from my face. He was staring at me with such intense admiration. The hair on the back of my neck started to stand on end at his touch. His purple orbs peering into my soul with such intensity that I was starting to lose myself. He started leaning forward, his hand gliding along my neck. Almost instinctively, I started to reach up to him as if some unknown force was guiding me, guiding us together. When our lips finally met, it felt like an explosion of colour and life. It was unlike any kiss we've ever shared. It was more passionate, more vibrant and more alive. I could feel the sparks dance across my lips  and i wondered if it was because i had finally accepted him for who he really was. Suddenly, it was that moment, I start to feel the pull. We were being drawn together and this time I let it happen mostly because I was curious and partly because I was too tired to fight it. I could feel Adam whimper at the sudden invasion of privacy because I was in his head. I hadn't actually been here since that one faithful day at Jim's. He composed himself and I felt a resilient ambition spark in him.