No Idea

No Idea- Chapter 2

Jack's P.O.V

I hurried out of the classroom before Alex could say anything after. I can't believe it at all, it feels likes a dream but the more i realise it, it's not. I try my best to tell myself that it is a dream but all of this is real. The boy I've been crushing on for the past few months knows I exist know, and now he's going to be at MY house tonight. But what keep's haunting me is that he's straight and has a girlfriend. Why do I even bother liking him? Why like the highschool football star and not the other 1,000 classmates in Dulaney highschool? But deep down I know there's a secret he is hiding from everyone. I can see it in his eyes and his smile.

I love his smile. When I'm not in the best moods and when it flashes, it just brightens my mood istantley. The way he keeps his skinny jeans a little off his hips showing some if his stripped boxers. The the way he tucks his hair under a beeine, and his honey brown eyes always alert for things other people don't bother to see. I've never believed in the "love at first sight" bullshit. But ever since I laid my eyes on him, I can't my mind to falter off of him. I always have some faith burried deep down in my heart that he is gay. But it goes deeper and starts to dissapeer when I see his girlfriend cling to him like a defenseless puppy or kiss him whenever at anytime. But then it dramaticly digs out more and more when I see him push her off of him when she gets a little bit too clingy and his disgusted expression when she sits on his lap and when they kiss. I don't know what Alex see's in..what's her name? Oh..Jasey. She is such a slut you can practicly just shout her "nick name" and she'll just come crawling to you begging for sex. It just makes me sick. But I just wish I was in her spot.

I wish I could feel his lips pushed up on mine. My tounge against his exploring his mouth, him just laying next to me telling me it's okay when my day has felt shitty. I wish he was my own. My Alex. I want to have random fights that just lead to make-out sessions, tickle wars, and conversations that are to akward to even remeber. I just wish he was gay but I want him to be happy with what he wants. I just wan-"JACK! Look out!" Someone yells behind me. I didn't realise I was standing in the middle of the hallway thinking if Alex.

I look up and see Trevor with a angry look on his face charging torwards me. It all happend in a blur. One moment I was standing, thinking of Alex. Next I was on the ground with a throbbing psin shooting through my left shoulder blade. I wince as I go grab my things scattered around me. But Trevor thinks otherwise.

"Listen here faggot, you stay away from Alex. He doesn't need to be infected with your..your gayness." He sneers at me. I look around to see people stareing and laughing. One of those people are Alex, but he's just standing there with a blank expression and his mouth ajar. I look back to Trevor knowing he isn't done. "You are a pathetic waste of life you know? There is no e in this school stupid enough to interact with you other than that boy magnet that follows you like a lost puppy..he also hs a girlfriend he's happy eith. He doesn't need some gay boy interfering that." he adds looking down on me with a glare. I feel tears tickling the corners of my eyes. He kicks my stuff around the hall before he and everyone else leaves. Or at keast I thought.

I lets the tears spill silently. I can't take the pain, the hurt, or anything. Maybe he's right, I'm just a pathetic waste of life. I gather my things and see a familar pair of converse in front of me. I look up slowly to see Alex with a horified look on his face. I get up and turn to walk away. I don't need to here his sempthy. "Wait Jack," I hear him say as he grabs my arm softly. I yank it away as I turn torwards him.

"Look..if your here just to finish what Trevor did then do it. Becaue I'm not gonna stand here and hear your sympthy and self-pity." I snap at him not caring about the guilt pulsing through me. I wipe the rest of the tesrs still on my face. I look down at the boy waiting for an answer. "J-jack..I knew he bullied you and all. But trust me I would never in my life hurt another individual unless for self-defense or they mess with my girlfriend..or boyfriend." That word coming out of his mouth made my heart skip a beat. Did he mean that? But he's straight. My thoughts clear when I hear his sweet voice again.

"Jack..I'm not giving you sympthy, but don't listen to what he says to you. He has no clue on whatever comes out of his mouth..it's all non-sense. I mean I don't even like Jasey anymore..I don't know what I like. But since this morning...I-i can't get you off of my mind. No matter how hard I try..you're just there." He says taking a small step torwards me making my eyes widen. Did he say he can't get me off of his mind? He doesn't like Jasey?.."w-what?" I say backing away a little.

"Nevermind..uhh. I got class so uhmm..yeah bye. See you tonight. Oh! What's your adress?" He says completely ignoring what I said. I'm dumbfounded. He's straight. He has a girlfriend. Yet he can't get me off his mind? "U-uh..uhmm sure..see you to.." I reply after giving him my adress and watch him walk away with that sway in his hips. I smile but then it drops. He is coming to my house. This is probaly a joke him and Trevor are pulling on me.

After tonight and the project he's just going to move on with his life and forget about me like a distant memory. He'll just laugh when I go up to him and walk away calling me "gay boy". But the way he said that, was he being honest? My head in thinking way to many thoughts until I notice I'm still standing in the hallway and I sigh. I head my way to the office about my shoulder.

"This is gonna be fun.." I tell myself thinking about Alex coming over. I just still can't believe it.